Swan Queen Fan Fic

First Fight

Emma's POV
-Regina's house-

As I arrive at her house I start to feel all nervous and jittery inside. Why am I so scared its Regina I love her, I shouldn't be scared. I kept telling myself not to be nervous but every time I did I just got even more nervous. After a few minutes of just awkwardly standing on her front porch I decided to ring the doorbell.
Ring ring
After not even a minute Regina comes to the door and opens it. She seems very cautious not to say anything to obvious because there were some towns people not too far away from her house and she didn't want to give them the slightest idea about us, which I don't blame her. "Ms. Swan, won't you come in." I slowly walk in and as soon as the door closes Regina kisses me firmly but tenderly. I didn't know how badly I needed this until it happened. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her closer embracing her. I can't stop myself from smiling as she slowly pulls away. She put her hand on my cheek and softly runs it down my neck causing me to shiver. "Oh Emma you have the most lovely smile. " she says with a smile I feel my cheeks turn bright red from the compliment Regina just gave me. "Regina, your smile is even more beautiful." I said with a smile as put my hand on her shoulder. We stayed there for what felt like an eternity until the silence broke with Regina "Emma I think we should tell everyone." As soon as those words came out of her mouth I felt myself get angry for her even thinking about that this early in the relationship. "No. No. No. " I said as firmly as possible. "
"Emma I think it would be a good idea, we won't have to sneak around anymore." She said with a stronger tone to her voice.
"Regina. I said no! I won't tell them I am not ready, I refuse to tell them. I can't believe you would even bring it up!" I said this time yelling at her. Her face looked hurt, but I don't care I will not tell them.
"But... We have to tell th-"
I cut her off mid sentence "NO WE DON'T!" This time I screamed at her, I felt bad after it happened but there was no going back. I could see the tears forming in her eyes.
"But Emma..." This time her voice was soft with sincerity to it.
"NO!" I screamed, from that second I could see that I had really hurt her, tears started to fall from her eyes and I could see she was hurt by my screaming.
"Emma? Why are you so against telling your family? Are you embarrassed about us?" She said with a calm but firm tone trying not to show how hurt she was.
"I am embarrassed, because what are they all going to think? They are going to hate me. I cannot have that!" I said with anger in my voice and as I looked at Regina's face I saw how much I had hurt her saying that.
"You're embarrassed?" She said bursting into tears. I felt bad, not bad, terrible, I made her cry...I made Regina cry as I went to put my hand on her shoulder to try and comfort her she quickly moved it away.
"Don't touch me." She said in a voice so strong it made me scared.
"Regina, I'm so-" she cut me off and looked at me like I had just told her I hated her.
"You're embarrassed about me, if you really feel that way than I suggest you leave Miss Swan." She said with a cruel tone to her voice as she gestured towards the door.
"Regina, I swear I didn't mean it like that." I said pleading for her to believe me. My eyes started to fill with tears.
"Miss. Swan I think you mean't it exactly as it was said." She was talking but it all sounded so unreal, she had almost no emotion in her voice and I could stop myself from bursting into tears.
"Regina, please." There was a moment pause
"I love you" and she looked at me with no love in her eyes and said.
"I don't believe you." Then she paused
"Miss. Swan I think you should leave. "
She walked me to the door as I walked out all I could do was cry, I couldn't believe what just happened, how could she be so cold? I love her, I thought she loved me. I stepped outside of the house barely keeping myself together and she slammed the door behind me. I almost didn't make it to the car before breaking down into full sobs. What had I done? I just told the woman I love that I was embarrassed about her. How could I do such a thing?