Back For You (TLG Book 2)

Chapter 16

Rhian POV

Nagising akong masakit ang aking ulo. Napahawak agad ako dito dahil parang binibiyak ako. I roamed my eyes around when i noticed that it is not my room. Imposible ding kay Chris ito dahil ibang iba yun.

Agad akong inatake ng kaba. Tumingin ako sa kabuuan ko and what a relief. Im still wearing my clothes. Pero nagtataka parin ako kung kaninong kwarto ito. Hanggang sa may isang pamilyar na boses akong narinig.

"Finally youre awake..." agad kong nabaling ang tingin ko sakanya.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang magiging reaksyon ko. Ni hindi ko din maisip kung bakit siya nandito at ano ang nangyari kagabi. Im so confused right now!

"W-hat are you doing here?" Halos pabulong kong sabi.

"Well this is my room kaya siguro naman may karapatan akong maging dito." He calmly but sarcastically said.

I just gasped when i felt dizzy. Napahawak ulit ako sa ulo ko.

"I know yourd wondering kung bakit ka nandito." Sabi niya at umupo sa gilid ng kama.

"..But first inumin mo muna to." Sabay alok sakin ng gamot at tubig.

Inabot ko ito at agad na ininom.

"S-alamat... Uhmm, ano bang nangyari?"

"Youre drunk last night. I actually didnt expect to see you in that bar. You were  so wasted that's why i helped you."

Parang may bahagyang humaplos sa puso ko sa sinabi niya. I didnt expect these words come from him simula nung muli naming pagkikita.

"Sana... sana iniwan mo na lang ako." I said.

Nakita kong ngumisi siya.

"And leave my conscience behind? Baka mamaya ako pang sisihin sa kung ano ang mangyayari sayo because im the only one who knows you there." mapanuya niyang sabi.

"Im sorry." Yun na pang ang nasabi ko at yumuko.

Naramdaman kong tumayo na siya.

"Bumaba ka na, i prepared us some breakfast." Sabi ni niya atsaka umalis.

Nanatili muna ako sa posisyon ko nang ilang minuto at nilibot ulit ang paningin ko sa kwarto niya. His room really scream all about him. Its color is gray ang white combination. Nandito din ang mga trophies niya from playing and also his favorite ball. Also some pictures with his teamates and his family. Pero ang mas nakaagaw ng pansin ko ay ang litrato kung saan may kasama siyang babae. Nakayakap ito sakanya at nakikita ko ang saya sa mga mukha nila.

May kung anong sumaksak sa puso ko. I guess this is his girlfriend.

Hindi tuloy mawala sa isip ko kung nasaan ang mga litrato namin. Sinunog na niya kaya at tinapon?? Ako kasi tinago ko yung sa isang malaking box kasama ng lahat ng alaala ko sakanya exept the necklace he gave dahil suot suot ko parin ito hanggang ngayon.

Napagdesisyunan ko ng lumabas sa kwarto ni Raine at pumunta sa kitchen area. I find his pad amazing, napakamaaliwalas. I saw Raine in the counter making some coffee but he stopped when he noticed my presence.

"Here." Sabay abot sakin ng kape.

Nagdalawang isip muna ako bago kunin yun.

"Thanks." I said at ininom yung kape. The same taste like few years ago. Nakakamiss tuloy.

"I prepared you some soup para mawala ang hangover mo." He blurted.

Bigla naman akong nahiya. Alam kong labag sa loob niyang tulungan ako.

"Hindi ka na sana nag abala pa. Uuwi din naman ako pagtapos nito." Sabi ko.

Pero hindi siya nagsalita instead pinagsalok niya ako ng soup at inilagay sa harap ko.

"Eat." he said.

I sighed. Kahit nahihiya ako kinain ko na lang. Sayang din grasya no! Besides this is the first morning i spend with him simula nung nakabalik ako kayo lulubusin ko na.

"Its your first time to drink last night?" He suddenly asked.

"Uhmm--" magsasalita na sana ako when he interupted.

"I know its not kaya wag ka ng magsinungaling. The bartender told me... youre drinking there almost every week." He said.

I just bit my lower lip at napayuko. Sandali kaming nabalot ng katahimikan but he also break the silence.

"Dont punish yourself too much Rhian."

Napatingin ako sakanya na kasalukuyan nakatutok sa kapeng iniinom niya.

"I deserved it, dont I?"

"Everyone deserves it, but they just chose to move on and let it be on the past. Like it should be." He coldly said.

"Kahit ilang beses pa kong mag apologize sayo Raine gagawin ko." I started to tear up.

"Im sorry for all the hardships, im sorry for the wrong decisions, im sorry for being selfish, im sorry for making you stupid, im sorry for the days you suffered, im sorry for all the tears that had been wasted, im sorry for the childish acts, im sorry for choosing myself than both of us, im sorry for those years, im sorry for leaving you... Im sorry, im sorry."

Then i burst out in tears.

"Pero Raine... gusto ko lang sabihin sayo na hindi lang ikaw ang nahirapan. Mas masakit sakin kasi i have to let go of something that is important to me. Na kahit ano man ang piliin kong desisyon ay may masasaktan, its just i chose to put my family first rather than my own happiness. Okay lang sakin na maging miserable deep inside just to make others happy. Alam kong imposible pero sana naman mapatawad mo na ko." I sobbed.

"Trek told me, that in every situation the are two sides. Kung masasaktan ang isa, masasaktan din ang kabila. Naiintindihan ko na ngayon Rhian, that you left me behind, that you chose to break me. And i forgive you for doing that. Pero sana maintindihan mo din na hindi basta basta mawawala ang sakit na pinadanas mo sakin. It still hunts me."

Ang that made me cry more.

"Maybe someday Rhian, when we will have the chance to meet again in a block, i might put a smile on my face for you. But not for now."

Sandali kaming natahimik. Only my sobs the one thing we can hear hanggang sa napagdesisyunan kong umalis.

"Thanks for last night. I guess ill see you." I just said and leave.

Nang makalabas ako sa pad ni Raine napaiyak ulit ako.

I promise to myself, this will be the last time ill cry for him but it doesnt mean that ill stop loving him even though he is not mine anymore.