*Phil's POV*
I just can't do this anymore, I love him, but he will never love me back, I've ruined the chance for that already. I just had to fall in love with the first person who has accepted me for who I am. Now Dan Howell hates me, and I can't live in a world where I don't have Dan. I can't go back to how it was before. I won't! I won't! I won't!
*Dan's POV*
I fell on my bed, exhausted. I still can't wrap my head around what just happened. Phil and I were just hanging out, like usual, when I mentioned having a school boy crush on PJ. I expected him to tease me about it, he is, well was, my best friend. That's what best friends do, they tease you when you like someone.
He didn't react that way though, instead, Phil didn't respond for a long time. I thought he might have fallen asleep while I was talking, and I would have to tease him tomorrow for falling asleep so early; however, when I turned towards him, I saw he was crying.
When Phil saw me looking at him, his eyes turned from glassy to hard.
"Phil?"
No response.
"Phil, what's wrong? Did I say or do something I upset you?"
Phil hesitated, as if he were about to say something, then did the last thing I expected.
He kissed me.
Before I could register what was happening, his hands were pulling my shirt towards him and his lips were pressed against mine. Once I could comprehend what was happening, I pushed him off of me and jumped off his bed.
"Phil, what the fuck mate?!"
"Can't you see Dan?"
"See what? I couldn't really see while you had your face pressed against mine!"
"See what's right in front of you!"
"All I see is you yelling at me for some reason that I don't know!"
"I LOVE YOU DAN HOWELL! How is that for a reason?!"
"What?"
"You heard me, I'm fucking in love with you, but apparently you want to go shag PJ, so don't let me stop you!"
He began to storm out of the room before I could register what happened. Chasing after him, I said,
"Phil, calm down. You aren't thinking properly."
"I'M the one not thinking properly?! YOU'RE the one who likes a boy who already has a boyfriend!!"
"Phil, we're best friends, you're just upset and maybe a little lonely, you aren't in love with me."
"Get out"
"What, wh-"
"You heard me, get out"
"Phil, please-"
"GET OUT!!"
Without another word I turned and ran out the door, leaving Phil by himself.
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