You had always been so insecured about your size because it isn’t that good …But Kendall thinks its beautiful just the way you are…
Kendall : * text * Dinner at 8pm . I’ll pick you up 7.45pm . Love you .xo
You as normal get ready and look at yourself in the mirror . You have a thought on yourself that if you could loose more than 20 pounds would be great . You have been cutting for so long . You getting ready by putting a strapless black dress but you decide to change it to sweat pants , t-shirt and jackets on top of it. Not only that ,you find a bracelet that could cover up your scars.
Its 7.40pm and there’s a knock on the door . You knew it would be Kendall .
Kendall : Are you ready ?
You : Yes I am ready . Let’s go .
You and Kendall barely talk in the car . You were thinking so much that you didn’t pay much attention . You and Kendall arrived the restaurant .
Waiter : Hello sir and madam , Welcome to our restaurant . What can I serve you ?
You : I’ll have water .
Kendall : Coffee please.
Waiter : I’ll be right back to take your orders and here is the menus .
Kendall : You can order whatever you want , baby .
You : Okay…
You were looking all those delicious food pictures but you couldn’t resist thinking that it could cause you gain so much .
Waiter : Here is your water and coffee. So are you guys ready to order ?
You : Yeah I’ll have mixed salad please.
Kendall : I’ll have lamb chop please .
Waiter : Coming right away . Thank you for the order .
Kendall : You okay ?
You : Yea I am why ?
Kendall : You usually order different things other than mixed salad…
You : I don’t feel good today so I’ll just have mixed salad.
Kendall : * suspicious * Okay .. If that so ..
After an hour , you and Kendall head back to his house. You rushed to the bathroom and try to find a blade . You found razor blade.Kendall follows you behind.
Kendall : Are you okay ???
You : Yeah I’m alright . ( in a calm voice ) I’ll be right out very soon.
Kendall walk back to the living room to watch some tv shows.While you’re in the bathroom , you are cutting your wrists cause you don’t feel good enough . Blood dripping and realized it make you feel so much better.You wash away the blood and put on your bracelets.
You : Hey babe . * kisses his soft lips *
Kendall : Hey … - turns around and look you in the eyes – Seriously tell me . I know you’re not okay .
A drip of blood falls on your sweat pants .
Kendall : What is that ?
You : I …umm
Kendall : Did you cut yourself yourself ? – he tries to take off your bracelets – and he was in the shocked state.
You snapped him out of this and snatch the bracelet away and put it on..
Kendall : Why did you do this ?
You : I didn’t feel good enough and I feel I gained so much weight and im afraid I’ll ashamed you …..
Kendall : - Holds your both hand – I don’t need you to worry about all this stuff . I love you just the way you are. I don’t care about your body size. I love you because you’re caring , understandable , beautiful , kind and so much more.
You : But look at me …
Kendall : - looks at you – You’re beautiful … - kisses your lips – Don’t ever cut yourself again please ..
You : O….kay .
Kendall : If you ever need me , just call me and I’ll be there right away just for you …..
You wrapped your arms around his neck .
You : Thank you baby .
