Closer (Camren)

Chapter 10

Camila's POV

All I've been thinking about all day is what Lauren is going to say. Why did she kiss me? I know it was the topic of the conversation but there must've been a reason. She wouldn't have just kissed me like that - it was different.

Luckily it was last lesson and I'm dying to know the reason. Whatever the reason is, Lauren thinks it's going to ruin the friendship but I want her to know that nothing can ruin us. It could be the worse thing ever, and I'd stick by her through anything. If she's worried to tell me, it makes me think of only one reason as to why she kissed me but I don't think she's in love with me. Me?

If Lauren was in love with me, she would've told me by now. She knows that I would never be freaked out. I wouldn't know what to say but I'd never shut her out because of it.

I don't know if this is normal, part of me wants Lauren to be in love with me. I don't exactly know why. All I know is that I've never thought about kissing a girl before but ever since we've kissed, all that's been on mind is kissing her again. When Lauren came out, I did think that I might be gay as well but I was crushing pretty hard on Austin.

Austin! I completely forgot about MY boyfriend Austin. See? All I can think about is Lauren and how she kissed me. Maybe I want Lauren to kiss me because she makes me feel loved, unlike Austin - he's been trying but I've been avoiding it since I read that message. Maybe I'm not gay, maybe I don't like Lauren; perhaps I'm just craving some attention.

I'm confused.

Lauren's POV

Camila [3:20pm]
I'm outside the main entrance waiting☺️

I didn't reply, I just went straight to the main entrance to meet Camila. I am nervous, I haven't stopped thinking about it all day. I don't know how to tell her, what to say or how to explain it. How do you tell your best friend of 12 years that you're in love with them and have been ever since you saw them.

"Hey", Camila shouted over
"Hi, you alright?", I smiled
"Yeah, my mums over there waiting for us", she said pointing at her mums car.

"Hey girls, how was school?", Sinu asked as we got into the car.
"Good thanks", we both said at the same time.

When we got to Camila's house we grabbed some snacks and headed up to Camila's room. I really felt the nerves now. I have to tell her today.

"Do you want to sit down?", Camila asked me noticing me nervously pacing around the room.
"Uh, no, I don't know, yes ok", I said.
"Lauren you know-", Camila went to say.
"No! I'm going to tell you today. Camila, I kissed you because I wanted to. I know it was selfish because I wanted to and didn't think about you of how you'd feel. Camila, I'm in love with you. Every part of you. I know love is a strong word but it's true, I do love you. Ever since I was older enough to understand my self, I've loved you. All I've wanted to do is kiss you and I just got the chance and I did it. I'm sorry.", I spoke fast hoping that it would be over but I was just waffling.

There was silence but it wasn't awkward.

"You like ME?", she asked pointing at her self.
"Yes", I said sighing but looking in her eyes.
"Kiss me again Lauren", she said.
"But, are you su-", I was cut off by Camila's lips on mine but this time she kissed me first. I couldn't believe it.

It was interrupted by a knock on the door. We both looked at the door when Sinu entered.

"Lauren, you're mum and dad are coming for dinner", Sinu said smiling.
"Oh ok, thank you", I said smiling and she left the room.

It was just Camila and I sat looking at each other.

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