i was happy
with my pink dress
and chocolate in my hands
sitting with my family
i was excited
holding my father's hand
walking to the park
eating my ice cream
i was cheerful
holding my certificate
my mom kissed my cheek
and said she was proud of me
i was scared
because i was late for class
and they said that that was wrong
had i done something bad
i was tired
cause i had to study
at 2 in the morning
for my exam
to have a good future
i was sad
because he had left
and i was alone
my door was unlocked
i was numb
there were red lines on my wrists
and a weird satisfied smile on my face
my door was locked
i was sleepless
because i could not close my eyes
there were too many voices in my head
my demons were too loud for me to sleep
one day
i was peaceful
a true smile was finally on my face
because i had just found out how flying felt like
it's funny
how i was all of these things
now I'm just dead
