Love is like a Match

The Beginning

The title of this collection of stories comes from a book I am currently reading called "Like water for chocolate". The books main conflict is the main character cannot be with the man she loves. A quote in the book talks about love being like matches, once the flame is out, it takes the same thing to get it back again. Which is what I have been feeling like for over a year now. I started a relationship with a classmate in March of 2014. I started dating him mostly because I wanted a boyfriend and seen everyone around me with a boyfriend, to be honest I didn't even have feelings for him when I asked him. After a few months I started to get feelings for him and kept him, then we broke up for the first time in July. I shocked myself by crying as much as I did. I wasn't sad or anything I was more or less pissed off because of his friends (but that convo is for another day). I was extremely hurt but we got back together that same day and I was happy. The relationship went on until September of that same year and again he breaks up with me a week after we go back to school, but I wasn't really phased by it. Not until he started "dating" one of my friends. On the outside I didn't seem to care but inside...inside I was hurting. I didn't blame her, and I didn't blame him, I honestly blamed myself. Since it was our second break up I thought there was something wrong with me or something I did wrong. But they broke up after about a week and I wanted him back, so like an idiot I went to him and practically begged for him back, and he said yes...eventually. So from September to December everything seemed fine, I loved him and he loved me. I thought that this relationship would last, but as usual I was wrong because  he came to my house in December while we were on break and we were alone together.