cant live without you

chapter one

Ughhhhh humans I hate them. They dont understand. But I guess its my fault it feels like im doing things all wrong. Cause no ones gonna feel my pain so I guess I cant point the blame. And as he always said no ones gonna love you.

*Yelling came from the other room.*

Great hes mad again. Well I guess I better go over to hyacinth's house.
*climbs out window and runs to hyacinths house*

Ugh she better be awake its only 10 pm.Ill knock on her window so I dont wake up little rose.
Ok shes on her laptop Ill just quietly---"ashhhhhh come home right now" --- shit k " hyacinth" I wispered it as loud as I could with our amking tomuch noise. "Whatare u doing go to the front door ill let you in"
«ash is curenty crying in hyacinths room»
Thank you I dony know what I would do without you. But you should get some sleep so you can go to school.
"Arent you going tomorrow"
" no I think ill sneek back in my house after they are gone"
"Ok if you need anthing just wake me up"

« ash fell asleep after trying so hard not to fall asleep»
Shit I didnt mean to fall asleep oh well I didnt have a nightmare so its ok. Ugh its ten well I better go home.
« when ash gets home she goes to the bathroom to take a shower before getting into the shower she is confronted what she despretdly wishes she didnt have to se ever again a razor blade»
No nope im gonna keep going and pretend I didnt see that. But it would be so easy to forget all of this just one wont do anything to bad as long as I dont do it deep.
« as ash procides to slice her arm trying to find love somewhere in the blood that she bleeds .she relises that she could end it all just by one slice......