Not being afraid of anything and being afraid of nothing are two very different things. You see, when someone says that they are not afraid of anything, it means they fear not a single thing. Which, of course, is a lie. Maybe not monsters beneath your bed, or ghosts in your closet, but what about other things? Surely you'd be afraid of finding someone perfectly imperfect, falling in love with them, and then having them leave you. Wouldn't that be a fear? And maybe not monsters beneath your bed, but what about the ones inside your brain? Those are far worse. They feed on positivity, destroy smiles and create a sense of comfort in a cold razor sliding against your pale, innocent skin. Those are terrifying. How could you not be afraid of anything, when the most horrible things are everywhere? They're like dust. Falling onto your lips and sucking into your lungs. Too much of it and your eyes begin to swell, and your nose to itch. It's in your hair, on your sleeves. It's everywhere. Sadness, depression, love, loneliness. Like oxygen. But to be afraid of nothing? That is something completely different.
I, am afraid of nothing. Emptiness. Black holes that lead nowhere. An empty room that you swear you just heard sounds coming from. Answering your phone to hear no response. Admitting your love to someone and hearing nothing in return. Nothing is everywhere, and nothing lasts forever. It is a horrifying emptiness that somehow contains all of you. It is plunged into the deepest parts of your soul and makes your heart hurt and knees weak. Nothing is terrifying.
I, am afraid of nothing.
