It was summer. It was the middle of summer to be exact. People wear shorts and tank tops, the beaches are as busy as ever and it seems like the days go on forever. I never thought my life would change so quickly but it did. Him. He literally walked into my life, my house to be exact. My father went to college with his and when we first saw each other we just seemed to stare for what felt like hours. He had long jet black hair and crystal eyes. If you are thinking Andy Beirsack, then no, it's not him. This boy was different. Yes, his hair was dyed but it looked natural. And his eyes, they were so amazing, they were a cross of blue and gray. He fell for me. I fell for him. His friends thought he was crazy, my friends thought the same about me. I don't know why he fell for me really.
I was a abnormal girl, in a normal girl body. I had green eyes and brown and red hair. I wasn't that pretty, honestly. In all honesty, I liked they way he dressed. The people like that are some of my best friends, they aren't afraid to be themselves. I admire that. I have to give him credit though, he did change me. I came out of my shell, he tore my walls down, showed my a world that I never knew existed and was so easy to come back to. I love it, the way he would make me feel. The way he held my hand and kissed my nose whenever someone would start to stare. He taught not to care what everybody else thought. I don't know why he fell for me.
Summer was over quicker than we expected. And we say our farewells, we never said goodbye it felt too permanent. We came back to reality and school started. I was always bullied, in don't know why, I was and easy target I guess. It got hard, so I called him. 'my heart is with you my love, your pain is now mine. I will see you again. just wait' he would tell me. He told me he would come back. Life would get hard and he would say the same thing over and over. He told me he would come to me again. I don't know why he fell for me.
I felt pain, nothing but pain. I was sitting by a cliff music blasting. This is where we said hello, I love you, farewell. Everything. This is our spot. I missed him being here, it was so empty. I got out my note book and started writing.
"Summer's gone here comes the pain,
Life without you just isn't the same,
through autumn no words were different from yours,
winter and spring there was still pain,
spilling from the wounds on this heart of mine,
summer has came,
And you're out of time."
Its because I'm different. It's because I'm quiet. It's because I let you in. I wrote down another note and stuffed it in my pocket. I left my stuff in a neat pile, sitting on top of my note. I can't deal with out. I jumped, as I did heard a scream, it wasn't my own. I don't know why I fell.
***
I saw you cry for me today, if my heart could beat it would break for you. I was found in the water two hours after I jumped. You never stopped crying, I watched you. You started hurting yourself for me, I watched you. You wanted to jump also, I didn't let you. Today is my funeral and you are speaking. The only one who knew that could. You were the only one I could've truly loved. You got up and stared at me. Your tears flowed down my your face, and you said thank you. "thank you for the time of my life" was your exact words. You jumped today, I watched you. I watched you walk to me and cry. He had a note in his hand. It was the note I wrote to him the day I jumped. It said thank you, thank you for the time of my life. I looked you in the eye and said the words I have been asking since the day I met you.
"I don't know why you fell for me"
