The Perfect BreakUp (OneShot)

The perfect break up

I sighed for the nth time... heart was racing and breathing was erratic that I thought I would be suffocated or choke myself... I licked my already dried lips wet... both of my palms were starting to sweat as I continued to battle with myself if I should say it or not...

And as I turned my head to the side, I saw the man who was the reason of my uneasiness... my brows started to furrow as I saw him smiled at me... and with that smile I almost got swayed from my decision that I had been thoroughly thinking of for the past several weeks...

But that was just it... I can't back out now... for I know very well that our relationship was all long dead... just what that one character said in the movie we watched together recently, we were just living up now as 'best roommates'... talking about living under the same house, eating, watching, doing things together and lastly, sleeping together... literally...

I thought him, being considerate when it comes to me was enough... being the sweet guy the way I knew him, that he just wanted to not hurt me in any possible way he could do but for the sake of keeping our relationship alive and in flame, being just sweet, gentle and considerate weren't just enough..! Coz this girl needed at least something to spice up the relationship..!

And I think he won't be the guy that could give me the thrill that I have wanted... maybe we're just not really meant for each other... I don't want to tell and force him to become someone that he was not and definitely do something that he doesn't do. And I just can't endure this dead relationship... I'm still young... I should be enjoying my youth with someone who has the same mind as me... I should be happy with the things I am doing...

"Come on let's go to sleep..."

And my thoughts were immediately cut off as soon as he said those words and stood up from the couch we were seated at... I was then left watching him as he turned off the television and slightly glanced at me before he picked up on his tracks towards 'our' bedroom... and that was it...

Forgetting the heaviness I was feeling inside, I immediately followed him... and before he could enter our room, I stopped him as I grabbed his wrist...

He soon stopped with his tracks and turned around to look at me with a confused look on his face...

"What's wrong...?"

He said as he tilted his head to the side... aigoo... I'll definitely miss those simple cute gestures that he involuntarily does... and before he could ask me again, I immediately beat him to it...

"Let's break-up Jiyong..."

Straight and simple...

And there I felt him stiffened... his face flinched a bit before his gaze immediately locked with mine...

I felt a little tug inside my chest but even before my guilt could take my decision back, I let go of his wrist and looked away... I could still feel his hard gaze on me... he never spoke... didn't even move a bit on his spot...

I gulped down the forming painful lump inside my throat... ignoring the wild racing of my heart, I prepared myself from telling him every reason of my surrender...

"As cliché this maybe... but really, Jiyong... it's not you... it's me..."

I courageously picked up my gaze back to him... my jaw clenched upon seeing him still looking at me with those unreadable eyes... I ignored it... and instead continued with what I am supposed to tell him...

"I just... I'm just... You're kind, sweet, and so understanding... you're the perfect guy a girl can ask for... but Jiyong... it bores me. This relationship bores me that I can't even look forward to something whenever I'm with you because we always do the same boring routine everyday... and it's really suffocating sometimes... I need some thrill... something to look forward to... something I could do with you without any restraints and with ease... this... this relationship is just too perfect... you're too perfect that it bores me... I'm sorry..."