As we get out to the car, Oli decides to sit in the back with me while Matt drives.
Rereading the note my mom gave me, I begin to cry again so I fold it up and put it down.
"Come here." Oli says as he opens his arms for me to rest my head in his chest. “We’ll take care of you from here on out." he says, reassuring me as he looks at Matt in the rear view mirror.
"Oi’s right babe, don’t worry about a thing." Matt says as he smiles at me in the mirror.
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As we pull up to Matt’s house I sigh loudly causing them both to look at me weird. “Sorry."
Grabbing all of my bags, we all three walk up to the door and go inside to find the others watching a movie.
"Well that worked out well" Lee says causing me to rush back to the room. “Woah, what did I say that was wrong?"
"Drop it mate." Oli says to him “Matt, she needs you. Go."
Oli handed Matt my bag and pushed him off towards the room after me.
By the time he got back to the room, I was already buried under the covers and sobbing into the pillows.
"Babe," Matt says as he puts a hand on my back. “Look at me."
Looking up at him and wiping my eyes, I can see how sad I’m truly making him right now.
"I love you, okay? I really do. Things will be okay." he says before kissing me softly.
Pulling away, I look at him and kiss him again deeper than the last.
Crawling on top of me our tongues battle for dominance.
Stopping, he looks at me. “No." he says.
"WHAT THE FUCK MATT?" I basically yell.
"Not yet."
"I want to!" I shout again.
"I don’t."
Crawling out from under him I stand up and walk out of the room and in towards the living room with the guys to find all of them staring at me.
"What?" I snap and turn around to walk out of the house.
"What the hell is going on?" Oli asks as he follows me out.
"Nothing." I lie.
"Wait, let me guess this one," he begins as he stares at me. “You wanted to fuck but Matt wont?"
"Fuck off Oli." was the only thing I could say to him.
Laughing he grabs my arm and pulls me back towards the house.
"What the fuck man. I want to be alone!"
"Good, go be alone in the room with Matt."
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"Stay here a minute." Oli says as he walks back towards the room where Matt was.
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OLI’S POV
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As I walk into Matt’s room I see him sitting on the edge of the bed with his elbows propped up against his knees and his face in his hands.
"What’s going on Matt?" I ask him, causing him to look up.
"I can’t do it. I can’t."
"You’re not one to turn down sex, mate."
"I feel guilty. I know it’s only her emotions from everything that’s going on right now. I just can’t."
"She wants to."
"No, she thinks she wants to. I’m not going to do that to her."
Standing up, I leave the room and head back out towards (Y/N).
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‘MY’ POV
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"He doesn’t want to because thinks it’s just your emotions right now. You’re upset so you think you wanna fuck."
Sighing, I walk to the room to talk to Matt.
"I’m sorry." is the only thing I say before he’s in front of me with his hands on either side of my face looking into my eyes.
"Don’t apologize. I wanted to as well. But it’s not the right time. I love you (Y/N), okay? Don’t forget that."
"I love you too, Matt." I say before his lips are on mine again.
Walking hand in hand out to the rest of the guys, Matt sits down on the couch and I sit on his lap.
"We’re all about to head out." Jordan says as he and Lee stand up to stretch.
"Alright. I’ll talk to you guys later."
Almost everyone was gone, but Oli was still there. Walking over to Matt and I, he puts his hand on my shoulder. “Be patient." is all he says before smiling and following the others out the door.
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"Let’s go cuddle!" I say as I jump off of his lap and hold out my hand for him to grab.
Taking my hand in his, we walk back towards the room.
"Can we change into pj’s first?" he asks with a smile.
"Yesss." I say as I grab clothes and go to the bathroom.
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"Are you dressed?" I ask before walking into the room.
I heard him laugh a little, “Yes. Come on." he says as he pats the bed beside him.
As I laid down with him, I couldn’t help but stare. He was so perfect in every single way.
"What?" he asks with a smile as he brushes the hair out of my face and rests his palm on my cheek.
"I can’t explain it," I say. “There’s just something about you that fascinates me. You’re perfect. Why me Matt? Out of everyone, you chose me."
Chuckling, he pulls me in closer to his body. “because you’re beautiful and unlike most of those girls, you’ve got respect for yourself. I love that."
"Matt.." I say allowing my voice to trail off. “When?"
Fully aware of what I was talking about, he shifted a bit and opened his mouth as if he were going to speak, but stopped.
