*A reply to the_tigress One Shot Story entitled FRIENDZONED. :(
Dear You,
Hi. I really don’t know why I’m writing this letter, but it wouldn’t hurt to try, right?
First of all, I want to tell you how happy I was when I first saw you during our enrolment last year. Love at first sight? I guess, but, who would believe that? Right? Would you?
Anyway, that time, you were standing in front of me, just a foot away, if I remembered it right, and honestly, I was trembling that I couldn't even move my hand to wave and introduce myself to you. Even saying 'hi' was so hard for me during that time. I was stunned, literally. Like my tongue was gone or something. Suddenly, you turned your back and gave me the sweetest smile I've ever seen in my whole life. Hopeful, I was about to take the introduction, but, I was wrong because your cute smile wasn't for me, it was for your friend who was waving at the back. However, it didn't leave me totally hopeless, because, at long last, we would be in the same class.
When classes started weeks after, I was surprised when you suddenly approached me during our Math class. You asked me if it was okay for me that you sit beside me, I said, without hesitation, “Of course.”, and I’m glad I did, because ever since that day, we became close. What made us even more inseparable was, you watched my basketball games and cheered for me. I was in total bliss. Later on, we became best friends.
The night you told me you liked me, my heart went extremely crazy that I couldn't help my feelings any more that I replied, “I like you too.” Besides, that’s what I really felt. I was so ready to take that next step with you, but instead, I told you, “I like you too, but, is it okay if we stay friends?”, you answered, “Yeah, it’s fine.”
Even though you tried so hard to hide your emotions, I could easily see the pain through your eyes, that it wasn't the answer you’re expecting from me. I knew it was a lie when you said it was fine, but still, I chose to believe it.
I had to believe it...
I had to...for the sake of my brother.
You don’t know how much it was hard for me to stay on that borderline. I wanted more. I wanted you, but I couldn't be selfish.
The day before your confession, my brother already told me that he liked you too. I didn't know if you noticed, because honestly, I didn't And, being the best friend, he asked me a favor, a very huge one. It was like a matter of life and death situation on my part. He asked me if I could help him with you. What am I supposed to do, say no?
I don’t know. I really don’t know.
It is always tough when simple questions tend to have such complicated answers. Why do we have to like the same girl? Why did he like you, of all girls in school? Well, I couldn't blame him, you are perfect.
Lastly, you know what’s even tougher is the fact that you like me and I like you, that everything was mutual between our feelings, but we’re going to stay friends and the toughest thing is, I'm going to see you with somebody else.
Honestly. I couldn't keep my heart from splitting into two different pieces knowing that you were right and that I’ll wake up every day and realize how stupid I was.
And that one thing you asked me? That I need to stop making you fall for me because I'm making it hard for you to not love me more than this best-friend-sort-of-way? I guess, it would be the other way around. I don’t know how to stop looking at you while you smile and I'm not the reason.
P.S.
Best regards to you and my brother. I guess, I'll live seeing the sweetest smile than not seeing it at all.
I'll always be grateful that I'm your Man-of-Honor.
Sincerely,
Your best friend
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