Saudade

Before

Louis and Harry used to be dating. They were madly in love with each other and always wanted to be with each other. Management however didn't approve of their relationship. They were confused and angry at first. What was so wrong about dating someone you love? Management later explained how it would hurt their image and that they would ruin the other boys chances of fulfilling their dreams. Louis was furious that their management was so homophobic. Love is love. Harry kept Louis calm and convinced him to keep their relationship under wraps. Harry would never forgive himself if he ruined Niall, Liam, and Zayn's career. He knew it was wrong to hide your feelings just because it could offend some people but he did it for the boys.

Louis and Harry were always joking around and somehow communicating with each other. Either it was brushing arms, looking at each other, embracing each other, or even throwing an arm or leg over them. Soon people started catching on to their special relationship. Management didn't like it. Management made them limit their amount of contact too little to minimum. They made them move out so they lived in separate houses or they at least had to tell the public that they did. Louis hated it. He even had to start dating a lovely girl named Eleanor Calder. They were good friends but whenever they went out or whenever they did stuff that couples were supposed to do, he always wished it was Harry instead. Harry was left to do whatever while Louis did this. Harry didn't like it because Louis was his and he didn't like sharing.

Harry trusted Louis not to cheat on him. But when him and Eleanor kissed and hugged in public, Harry would always get a small sliver of fear that maybe just maybe it meant something. Maybe Louis liked kissing her more than he liked kissing him. Harry always kept those thoughts to himself. Whenever he thinks about telling Louis he remembers what management said to him "Don't mess up other people's career just because you get boy crazy." Louis wasn't their when management told him that. Louis always wanted to be with Harry when they had meetings but that one was over the phone so Louis couldn't have been there. At least that's what Harry told himself.

Harry was always reassured that Louis was his because when Louis would get home the first thing he would do is kiss Harry. Long and softly. No force just their lips resting against one another's. After a minute or 2 Louis would pull back and rest their foreheads together. Whispering "Hey baby, I love you." Then he would continue on about how his day was. In return Harry would tell Louis about his. Even if Harry sat at home all day, Louis would always listen to him intently as he described little tasks that he did around the house or funny things he saw on the computer. Then they would go and eat then go and cuddle in their bed while watching random movies.

At least those were the good days. Before they stopped fighting management and their perfect relationship crumbled to dust. Now they live separately. They barely talk to each other. They never touch each other anymore. They barely make eye contact. Harry does it because it hurts too much. Louis feels void and lost without Harry. He desperately tries to find something to make him feel anything. He does everything from drugs and alcohol to fucking random girls every night. Harry knows this and it hurts him even more. Harry's feelings for Louis never went away. Louis just blocked them all out.

This is them now. Harry in pain forcing a smile and Louis void and without direction.

~AN~

Guess whose back. Back Again. Sammy's back.

Haha anyway long time no updates. Sorry but I am determined to update more and write more this year. Anyway as you can probably tell this is a Larry Stylinson. Drugs, bad language, and sexy time will be in this book so if you don't like that kind of stuff don't read it. Anyway I'm going to explain the title for you guys.

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~Sammy