A Bounty Hunter's Heart (Star Wars)(Kylo Ren XOc)

Chapter 19- Nightmare

-Katrin's POV-

No, he's not gone. He's struggling with the Light within him, which means the Ben I knew isn't dead. He's just locked in a box within himself. And there's a possibility I can bring him back. But Kylo will be hard to get rid of and he will never truely be gone.

I sigh and wash my hair as I continue thinking. It's impossible to truely get him back. I can tell some of his choices haunt him. I don't know how I can tell but I can.

I just want to go home to Ky. I know she misses me. I hope she made it there ok. I close my eyes and search for her through the Force.

An image appears that makes me smile. She's curled up on a bed sleeping soundly. Her fiery red hair falling in her face slightly. Though her cheeks stained with tears. But she sleeps soundly.

A door opens in her room. Leia stands there looking sad. Her eyes flicker to my sister and she sighs. She walks gracefully over to the sleeping child and sits at the edge of the bed. Brushing Kyren's hair out of her face a bit, she gives a sad smile.

I open my eyes. She made it there safely, for that I am thank full. Smiling lightly, I begin finishing with my shower and let my mind wander again.

Once again, my mind is on Kylo. I feel a small amount of fear emanating from the other room. He's having a nightmare, I determine. I sigh and turn the water off. When I get out, I dry off and get dressed.

I open the door and am met by an overwhelming sense of fear. Looking over to the bed, I find Kylo still sleeping but shivering in fear. I glide over to the bed and put my hand on his shoulder but end up being pulled into his mind.

-Kylo's dream-- Katrin's POV-

Everything is covered in darkness. An evil, destroying darkness. A voice screams in agony. The voice is female and screams one word .

"Kylo!" That sounds like my voice. Why is he dreaming about me?

Kylo runs in front of me looking frantic and terrified.

"Kylo, you need to wake up," I say, calmly. He doesn't acknowledge my presence in his mind. " Kylo. You will wake up," I growl and awaken him with the Force.

I open my eyes and slowly take my hand away from his shoulder, slowly as his eyes open. He bolts up and looks around confused until his tearfilled eyes land on my. Without warning, he envelopes me in a tight hug. I sit there stiffly for a moment before wrapping my arms around his torso.

"Shhhhh. It's ok. I'm here. It's alright," I hush, gently, ad if I were talking to Kyren after one of her nightmares. He berries his face in the crook of my neck and my shirt dampens with tears as his body shutters.

"I dreamed I lost you. I- I dreamed I couldn't help you-" he begins but ends up sobbing. I stroke his hair gently and shush him. "I know you hate me," he croaks out, brokenly, "but I can't stand the thought of something happening to you. I've loved you for so long but never had the courage to tell you. Please just forgive me. I can't stand not having you by my side anymore. I'm fine with you hating me, it hurts but I can live with it. But please stay. I need you."

I pull him away a little bit and look into those black orbs of his. Putting my hand on his cheek, I place my forehead to his. "I don't know if I can forgive you for what you've done, Kylo. But I do know that I can't stay. Kyren needs me. She can't be on her own. I take care of her as if she were my own family. I can't raise her here. My heart might still love you, deep down, but I don't know. I'm sorry, but I can't, Kylo," I whisper.

He pulls away slightly and looks into my soft Safire eyes. "Please don't leave me, Karin. I need you, so freaking much. Please give me a chance. Learn to love me as Kylo as much as you loved me as Ben. Please," he begs. For once, I can see how truly broken he actually is. And for whatever reason, it hurts my heart.

"I... don't know. I don't know if I can open my heart back up to you after it shattered into a million tiny pieces when you made your choice," I say, pulling away.

He looks at me in slight confusion. "What do you mean?" He asks.

My anger flares and I bolt to my feet and turn away from him and walk away slightly. " I saw what you did!" I yell. "I watched through the Force as you slaughtered those Padawans, Kylo! I watched uselessly as you fell further and further into the clutches of the Dark Side! I watched as Ben Solo became the infamous Kylo freaking Ren, Leader of the Knights of Ren. It broke my heart." I yell, pausing for breath before continuing. "I was in emotional agony for months because I knew you would never be the same ever again. And I was right. The blood on your hands continued to grow. My heart continued to break. Then I finally buried my feelings for you in a hole, never to see the light of day again. The only love my heart has felt is that for Kyren. You left me! You became a monster in the place of the person I loved most. I can't open my heart to you again. I can't risk it being broken like that again." By now tears are rolling down my face as I stand with my back to him.

"Then at least let me show you that I am here," he says quietly. The bed creaks as he stands and I feel his arms wrap themselves around my abdomen. He places a finger on my chin and he turns my head to look at him. His eyes hold so much emotion within them that I can't decifer everything in them. "Let me show you that you can open your heart once more. I still love you," he whispers, leaning in closer to me.

His lips press against mine again in a gentle way. This time, the kiss is filled with a gentle and patient love. I find myself kissing back.

I turn my body so it's facing him and I wrap my arms around his neck, deepening the already deep and gently passionate kiss. He wraps his arms around my body. After I few minutes, I pull away for air. Huffing, I press my forehead against his and I feel his breath against my mouth as he struggles to catch his breath as well.

"Why are you wearing my clothes?" He finally asks.

I pull away and chuckle. "Because mine are dirty and I needed something to change into after my shower," I explain. "Why don't you try going back to sleep while I go find something to do?"

"Fine. Try not to get into trouble," he teases and kisses my nose.

"No promises!" I sing walking out of his room.