smiles bleed red.

I want to cut open a vein.

bleed out all my pain.

feel flesh and blood.

avoid drowning when tears become floods.

failure is all I seem to do.

when I'm surrounded.

drowning in never ending blue.

Will this ever end?

Or do I continue to pretend?

hatred carved into my skin.

battles I never seem to win.

hope soon became lost.

happiness is what it cost.

lies I start to believe.

when all "friends" start to leave.

What to do or say?

when everyone just walks away...

leaving you all alone.

so your true colors never show.

broken and crumbling on the floor..

is this what u wanted??

because I always had to be more?

emptiness is all I feel.

mixing up fantasy..

And what is real.

dead, but heart still beating..

Why do I still keep breathing?

thoughts that never end.

forcing you just to pretend.

tearing a part your soul..

you are starting to loose control.

spiralling farther and farther down...

smiles fading to frowns.

breathing but barely alive..

fighting a constant never ending battle..

drowning and broken inside.

.