The Countess

.11

Donovan

I can't believe she already has a new toy. 

I can't fucking believe it.

She thinks she can just throw me out and then never hear from me again?

Well she's wrong.

I will always find my way back to that hotel and into her cold heart. She knows she loves me. She has to know. There is no way that she doesn't love me like I love her. Those men she takes in are only there so she doesn't think of me.

All she needs is to accept me and my love, but she's scared.

She's to afraid to admit it. She doesn't want to love me but she can't help it. She's already fallen for me.

She thought I was just going to be some useless junkie that she turned and took in for a while to keep her company, but that's not what happened. She grew feelings for me which turned into love. She knows she loves me which is exactly why she threw me out, but I always come back.

I don't know why I love her, I don't even know why I want to go back. I feel as if I have to, like my body belongs there, and my heart belongs to her.

I miss her so much, but I don't want too. I don't want to miss her, to love her, to think about what we are, I don't want it, but then I do..

"Fuck!" I scream throwing the lamp at the wall.

I need to be with her. I need to. If that means killing her new toy then I will.

She is mine and always will be, even if she can't accept it.