Not My Life to Lead (A Freddie Tomlinson Fanfiction)

Part 4 - Flares

I unlocked my phone and checked my inbox. Why was my dad messaging me? Whenever he messages me it's an emergency, he never just messages me to chat or check up on me, or to just say hi.

'Hi Freddie, I heard about your mom's vacation in Hawaii and I was wondering if you'd like to stay with me until she comes back, there's plenty of space here, I'm sure you'll love it! Get back to me a soon as you can, love Dad.'

I stared at my phone wondering if I should reply or just leave it and go back to watching cheesy television shows.

After a while in thought I decided I might as well, seeing that he went through all that time typing that message for his only son, and biggest mistake.

'I'm fine here dad, I'm okay staying alone,' I typed frantically.

I press send quickly so I didn't have time to argue with myself if I sounded like a brat or not. I wasn't used to talking with my dad, we didn't talk much, we only met once a year, and even then we hardly talked without getting into an argument.

My phone vibrated in my hand.

'No, I insist,' I read.

I sighed and gave in,'okay dad I just need sometime to think about it.'

I waited until another message popped up,'take your time, tell me when you've decided.'

Why did my dad have this sudden interest in me? He didn't even message me on my birthday and now he wanted me to stay with him, it just didn't make any sense.

Instead of dwelling in depressing thoughts that were swirling in my head. I decided to go sit in my bedroom, upon my neatly made bed. Yeah, i'm one of those guys.

I needed something to distract me and clear my mind. I grabbed my guitar from its case and gently placed it on my lap. I began to strum random chords just letting the creative juices flow.

I may not be anything like my father as I've said before but I definitely understand his passion for music and singing, although I don't think I'm suitable for that career or lifestyle.

I start playing the song 'Flares' by The Script. I love rock music, especially playing it.

"But did you see the flares in the sky,

were you blinded by the light,

Did you feel the smoke in your eyes

did you? did you?

Did you see the sparks filled with hope

and you are not alone

'cause someone's out there

sending out flares

Did you break but never mend

Did it hurt so much you thought it was the end.

Lose your heart but don't know when

and no one cares

there's no one there

But did you see the flares in the sky

were you blinded by the light

Did you feel the smoke in your eyes

Did you? Did you?

Did you see the sparks filled with hope

And you are not alone

'cause someone's out there

sending out flares.

Someone's out there, sending out flares."

I inhaled a deep breath once I had finished. I love that song because I can relate to it on so many levels. It always makes me remember that I have a very hard life, but I'm very privileged in the means of money, people I meet, and events I get invited to. Opportunities people would kill to get the chance to experience them.

I'm not the only one that has problems and that's why this song is special because it serves as a reminder that we all have tough times sometimes, but there are always people who are worse off than us.

I cleared my mind up quite a bit after that and decided to ask my father why he cares so much.

'What's the reason for this dad, you've never asked me to visit before.'

I pressed send, hoping he'll reply soon.

I got my homework out my school bag and placed everything on my desk. Maybe my dad actually cares about me. No, I doubt he's changed, he's often in America, he still doesn't visit. He's even been spotted with a new girl, and he hasn't told me anything about her, it would be nice to have some stability in my life.

I heard my phone beep.

Louis Tomlinson 1 message.

I clicked on it.

'I miss you, Fred,' it said.

I didn't know whether or not to believe him.

I began writing him back,'Dad I have decided............'

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