A Glance Into My Mind

Unspoken nothings.

I sit, unwilling.

What is to be said in a situation like this ?

I know I should say something,

but I can not bring myself to move air through my vocal chords.

How does one make a sound when they forget how?

My thought spin in circles, endlessly twirling,

and my mouth refuses to move. 

Move damn it ! express yourself!

No movement.

I have lost my ability to speak.

Thoughts will go next,

and hey, maybe I'll even loose my vision. 

But I know this is not the case,

I am am emotional wasteland,

pushed past my point of endurance,

I have shut down. 

I  can look,

I can try,

I can feel,

and I can cry,

but I can not for the life of me bring a sound from my pale lips.

My mind will not let me, 

and I can not remember how to do so without my mind.

My breathing becomes thin,

and my heart rate slows.

I am calming myself down,

but if I were to attempt to speak now I would make no sense.

Oh the burden it is for me to carry,

living inside my own head.