Can I love the enemy? GXG

To Be Or Not To Be?

I watched the flames engulf the file. It was up to me, did I want to rekindle the flame with Skylar. She was the best thing that had ever happened to me. On the other hand she was the enemy, I had taken an oath to protect and serve. I was torn between what's ethical and my needs. Yes I admit it I had been a lone wolf since Skylar. My mind raced with thoughts of  her. But I broke her and she broke me. We were polar opposites which made our love so much more sweet, but much more deadly.

It had been a year since I left her; it wasn't because the mission had failed. It was because we were in a relationship. I let my personal feeling interfere with my duty. I told her I loved her. I was willing to betray my oath, my country for her. But then I found out she had been cheating on me. But the worst part is she told me after I asked her to marry me. In her exact words she told me this "I would love to marry you Jade, but you don't deserve me. You deserve so much more. I have been cheating on you..... I'm sorry". Her words linger with me, until Alpha reappears.

"Hey" I say feeling exhausted from memories of Skylar.

"I need your decision by tomorrow" he said with a hint of disappointment in his voice.

"Why are you disappointed?" I say raising my voice slightly.

"It's just you are my best agent, I helped you when no one else would and it takes you this long to decide if for once in your life you are going to help me" Alpha was shouting now.

I looked at him in disbelief. He was asking me to betray the only person I ever loved. Was he crazy? I was split between love and responsibility? "Don't give me that Alpha. If you knew how much pain you are putting me through...."

He just walked off. "You have until 8.00a.m. Sharp to give me a response" he had turned so cold towards me.

I got my keys and got into TARS. "Take me home TARS, not the hotel my real home" I said.

TARS knew I was in a bad mood so he didn't respond and sped of leaving a cloud of dust behind.

----------------------After 15 minutes of driving------------------

I got out of the car it was late. I looked at my watch and saw it was 10.47p.m. I walked towards a little derelict house. I sighed. I flung the front door open and ran to my room. It was times like these when I needed friends. I laid on my bed and stared at the ceiling. Then I closed my eyes.

-------------------------After 4 hours sleeping--------------------

I awoke from my dream. I had dreamt about me going on the mission but then I saw Skylar. I remember that I didn't want to hurt her so I abandoned the mission. Then we went off happily to live our lives.

But that could never happen. She thought my name was Jade Young when it was really Jade Louise. She thought I was a drug lord when really I was her enemy, the government. How could we live on lies? How?

I just feel like I'm Juliet and she's Romeo. Juliet couldn't live without Romeo she was willing to give up her rich life to live with him, well in my case her. But my Romeo could live without me, she could betray me. The plot to the story describes how we live enemies who fall in love but are forbidden to continue it. The only twist was Skylar didn't know I was the enemy. But if I told her I was the one who would eventually get hurt the most.

I couldn't just think about myself though I had to think of all the people that would die if I didn't stop rebel. I also had to think of how much Alpha had done for me. He helped me to regain my confidence as a spy. Most people would have given up on you by now. It is the classic question, to be or not to be?

I have finally decided what to do. I picked up my phone it was 5.57p.m. Alpha would be awake by now. I didn't know whether to go to headquarters or to call him. I think it would be better face to face.

I got undressed and had a shower; to be honest I needed to refresh myself before facing Alpha. After my shower I slipped my dressing gown on and went to my wardrobe. I decided to dress informal today so I got a pair of skinny black jeans a tight white tee-shirt. Then I grabbed a black hoodie. I put my clothes on and exited the house.

TARS was still waiting the so I unlocked him, and jumped in.

"Good morning Robin" TARS chirped.

"Good morning TARS, take me to the nearest fast food joint please" I replied.

TARS drove off at 30mph since I hadn't told him to speed up.

I arrived at McDonald's at 7.05a.m. I decided to use the drive thru, since they had a card machine now.

"Hello what can I get for you?" the woman on the speaker said.

"Can I have a bacon roll with brown sauce and an egg McMuffin with brown sauce?" I said.

"Would you like that as a meal?"

"Yes and can I have two orange juices please"

"Is that all?"

"Yes" I was so hungry that I ordered two breakfasts. Who could blame me McDonald's was so damn good.

I drove round the corner and put my platinum card into the machine. The lady looked at me I disbelief. She looked at my car. She looked at my card then looked at me.

"What's a fancy girl like you eating here for?"

"Well I just cannot get enough of this delicious food" she stared at me and told me I was crazy but I just took my card and drove to collect my  food.

I grabbed my food and orange juices and drove to work. I put my food in my office and went straight to alpha.

"H-hello, Alpha" I said not knowing why I was stuttering.

He stared at me blankly and gestured for me to sit down. "Have you decided" he said with a glint of hope in his eye.

"Yes, I have decided" I said blankly.

"Well..."

"Firstly, I want to know if you meant what you said yesterday" I said, dreading the answer.

Silence filled the room for a moment. We looked at each other, awkwardly.

He finally responded. "No, I was just angry, I didn't fully realise you loved Skylar. If you don't want to continue with the mission I will be disappointed but I will understand"

I shook my head. "No, I openly admit I love Skylar but I have a duty an oath to Britain so I will continue with the mission"

Alpha lit up. He looked like the Alpha I loved, not that cold bastard I encountered yesterday.

"I am so glad; I thought I was going to have to discontinue the mission" he said.

"Another question Alpha, why did you low jack my car, yesterday?" suddenly his face went serious. I was dreading his answer.

"I didn't" he said.

"Then who did?" I said shakily.

"Take me to TARS" he said swiftly. I obeyed.

When we got to TARS he studied the car and ripped the tracker of TARS.

"I am going to analyse this" he said as he left.

Who would have done this? Whoever it was, was obviously trying to disrupt the mission. I went back to my office I was hungry so I devoured my McDonald's and sat pondering who the mole was. I didn't really associate with anyone but alpha. So it would be hard to figure out who.

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