Aftermath (An SVU Fanfiction) *EDITING*

Elevated Emotion

Elliot took Olivia to see Dr. Lindstrom the morning after her flashback, her nightmare if you will. Olivia denied anything happened with the intention of blowing it off and forgetting the whole thing ever happened. Typical Olivia Benson. 

Olivia was noticeably distant. She didn't wan anyone, even the kids, touching her, or even speaking to her.  It stayed this way for the next three weeks as her pain grew worse and worse with every day. It wasn't just the physical pain, either. It was the shit-ton of emotional pain that came along with it.

Now, Olivia is sitting on the couch eating a sandwich. The only reason she's even eating right now is because of the fact that she's pregnant. All she wants to do is lay in bed all day and never get up.

"Liv?" Elliot calls to her.

"What?"

He sits next to her, but she scooted over. "Baby, i'm really worried about you, okay? Everyone is and the kids are noticing-"

"They aren't noticing anything because i'm fine! Why can't anyone seem to get that?"

"Because all you do is lay around all day. You don't talk to anyone, you don't leave the house, and you won't even play with the kids."

Olivia paused for a moment, trying to think of anything to make his claim false. "Actually, I took them to school and daycare-"

"Last week because Lucy was running late and I had to be in court early."

"Why does it even matter?"

"Because I don't like seeing you like this."

"Elliot, I already told you, i'm fine. Can you just drop it?"

"Drop what, huh?" Elliot asks, becoming irritated with her. "The fact that you woke up in the middle of the night screaming and crying for the first time in two years? You expect me to just forget that? For the kids to forget that?"

"They didn't see anything!"

"Yes they did!" he yells. "It took Eli almost twenty minutes to get Dylan back to sleep, he told me!"

Olivia started crying. "I'm sorry!"

"Would you stop apologizing?"

"Well, what else do you want me to fucking do?! Listen to you yell at me?! I thought you said it wasn't my fault!"

"Honey, it's not-"

"Then stop! Maybe it is my fault! Maybe I was asking for it!"

"Olivia, just stop! You know it wasn't your fault! Why are you telling yourself that, we're past this!"

"We?! We weren't raped! We didn't have a rape baby and we don't have flashbacks!"

"Liv, that's not what I meant and you know it."

Olivia's face is beat red, it's stained with tears. "I'm not sure what I know anymore!" she cries. "It was supposed to be different this time! I was supposed to be happy and there wasn't supposed to be flashbacks, Lewis wasn't supposed to take this away from me, but he is!"

"Olivia, baby, calm down," Elliot tells her, rubbing circles on her back. He wipes the tears away with his thumbs. "I know this is stressful and it's scary, but you aren't alone."

"I am alone! You don't get it, you will never get it! I thought I was over it, but it's like everytime I close my eyes now, he's there and he's doing things to me and I just want it to stop!" She places her hands on her swell and can feel her son kicking her.

What they didn't know was that Eli was listening to the entire conversation. He stepped out from behind the corner. "What's a rape baby?" The two of them whipped around and stood in shock. How were they going to explain this one? They haven't gotten into detail about what they do. They've explained their job, but haven't really told him about rape. They haven't even talked to him about sex just yet. "What's rape?"

"Uh..it-it's nothing, sweetie, go play in your room." Olivia says through her tears.

"Why are you lying to me?"

Elliot decided it was his turn to speak after Olivia turned to him and buried her face in his chest. "Listen, buddy. Mom's just upset, okay? Go play."

"But dad-"

"Maybe..maybe we should tell him, Liv," Elliot whispers. "He's getting older and-"

"Tell me what?"

"No!" Olivia yells. "Nobody's telling anybody anything!"

"Liv-"

"NO! IT'S NOT HIS BUSINESS AND IT'S NOT YOUR BUSINESS!"

"Not my business?"

"No!" Eli knew he was in the middle of something and decided to quietly excuse himself to his room.

"It is my business, you are my business!"

"Stop!" she cries. "Just leave me alone! I don't want him, or Dylan, or this baby, they will never know, okay?! It's not your place to make me, either, so just stop!"

"Okay, okay, Liv, calm down-"

"Don't tell me to calm down!" she yells, slapping his hand that was moving to her cheek. "Stop.." Olivia's voice cracked.

Elliot kissed her forehead and pulled her head down to rest on his shoulder as she cried. "Liv, i'm so sorry, okay? I am so, so sorry."

Olivia felt a great deal of pressure 'down there' and knew it was happening. She knew she was in labor. "Ahh! El, I need-I think i'm in labor!"

"Wait, are you serious?"

"Yes i'm fucking serious!"

A/n: PLEASE READ: Okay, I know it's super short, but it's not a cliffhanger, I promise. What I really want to tell you guys is that the next chapter will be ten years-yes, ten years- into the future. I know this is a huge change, but I need to do something to make this story feel new again. It's been twenty-six chapters, and it was great in the beginning, but it's feels like it's getting old for me. I really want to continue writing this because I know you all like it based on the views, comments, votes, and messages I get from you everyday. I've already made my mind up, but i'd still like to know what you all think. I feel like I include you guys in a lot when I write new chapters and stuff so that you are apart of the process because I want you to like it, I want you to be involved in the process because you're the ones reading it. On the other hand, i've said many times before that if it gets boring for me, then i'll stop writing it because there's not enough inspiration to continue, but I don't want that to happen here. Anyways, I love you all and hope you guys understand where i'm coming from. This most definitely won't change the story, but it'll be a newer start.