Something new

I lay motionless on my fluffy yet small bed and watch the fan on the ceiling spin making me feel a bit noxious, but i ignore that feeling because I consider it a minor problem to what I've been through today. It was horrible, terrifying and all of the nasty things that you can think of. It was terrible returning to my native country, even worse when I found out i'll be attending real school and today, first day of 'real school' was the worst.

I can't stop myself from wondering if this can get worse, so i close my eyes hoping this will shut me off from the world around me.

I'm guessing you might find it funny how I'm not pleased to return to my native country and if i were you i would too. Its just that I've left everything and everyone so suddenly and i can't bother to forgive my family for tricking me into coming here and i don't think I will. They sent me here and left me! I feel abandoned, I feel like they shipped me off to here just to get rid of me. To top it all I am living with a complete careless person whose in their late 20 (i guess )but acts like a teenager. Honestly, I don't know if i like her or if i'm obliged to like her because she's my aunt.

I know what you are thinking if right now, you're living in a parents free house why are you so mad? Well its because all my life I've been kept away from this society and country to the extent of me feeling like an outcast in the place where i should call home. Also, I'm mad because when i stopped wanting this to happen an begging for it and started to accept the fact i'm not like the other people they change your mind, they are 15 years too late! I can't start living my life this late, i just can't.

"JO!", I hear my aunt call. Dinner must be here (we ordered pizza today,yum) and I should go.