Lonely Games (a jacksepticeye fanfic)

Chapter 3

I stepped into my apartment and threw my keys in the dish by the door. I was still just staring blankly around me. I had been able to get it together just long enough to pay the taxi driver and then I slipped back into my stupor. I could not believe what had just happened. Was this my life now? Kissing guys I had just met, not to mention who had just beaten up my ex, on a street out in front of a bar? That wasn't me. I made my way to my bedroom and dug up my pajamas from a heap on the floor. Slipping into the shorts and oversized sweater I made my way to the kitchen and started a kettle. I pulled out the tea bags and some lemon from my fridge and tried to focus on making the tea and sobering myself up.

This will all make sense if you just get back in your right mind. At least that is what I kept telling myself.

My tea finished and I poured myself a cup and went to sit on the couch. I went through the evening one more time in my head. I met a YouTube-famous guy who I had adored for a long time. My boyfriend finally hit me which I had been expecting for a while. And that famous guy beat up said boyfriend, or now ex boyfriend, then he kissed me after talking for hours. And I ran away. Was I dumb? My whole life I had been searching for the stability I never saw growing up, then when it was handed to me I spent my time secretly yearning for something more exciting. I knew my relationship was a sham but wasn't everyone's? Brad had what I wanted, money, stability, a future. And I tossed it away to spend an evening with a guy who I barely knew.

There it was, the catch. I felt like I had known Jack forever. He knew more about my life from the past few hours than Brad had learned in the last year. I knew a lot about him, certainly cared about him more than I cared about Brad, and he made me feel like those feelings weren't wasted.

The thing about Jack as a YouTuber is that he never failed to be a friend to his viewers and that certainly was helpful to me in my moments of need. Tonight I learned that as a man he was no less sincere. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I regretted leaving the bar. I should have stayed, should have at least explained why I was leaving and been honest with him. He said he wanted to see me, was that true? I immediately ran for my computer and hopped onto his channel. I scrolled through till I reached the video titled "Chicago Game Con Bitches!!!" I clicked on it and smiled as soon as I saw his intro. I missed his presence instantly but pushed that feeling aside to concentrate on what he was saying.

"So Mark invited me to come be on his panel at Chicago Game Con and I have always wanted to visit Chicago so I decided to go! I know it is kind of last minute but I am super excited to come out for another chance to meet all of you and hang out with my friends! It's such a nice change from being alone here." He let out a fake wail of sadness and I laughed. He gave the dates and the info about where it was and what time the panel and the signing were at. I jumped up from my desk and ran to my purse. I started digging looking for my phone but I couldn't find it so I started checking my coat pockets. I finally found it, along with a piece of paper I pulled both out, ignoring the latter. I went to work texting my best friend explaining all that had happened and asking her if she wanted to go try to crash this thing as tickets would likely be sold out. Finally I put my phone down, picked up my tea, and looked at the piece of paper. It was a ticket. One admission ticket with 'Panel VIP' for Chicago Game Con. I almost dropped my mug. My phone began ringing and I went to pick it up still in shock.

"Addy?? What happened I am so confused!"

Even though it was three in the morning by this point I settled back into the couch with my tea and began to go through things slowly with her.

"So you and Brad are over, and some youtube guy wants you to come see him at some convention?" She seemed to be laughing a bit.

"Yea thats the long and short of it."

Now she bust out laughing.

"It isn't funny! I don't know what to do!" I squealed back at her.

"You go tomorrow, you idiot! It's not a super hard puzzle to figure out Addy! Brad was a dick, I have been telling you that since you met him. He needed to get the shit kicked out of him. The fact that it was a hot Irish guy fighting for your honor is just icing on the cake!"

I started laughing too and put my head back enjoying the feeling of relief washing over me.

"Alright Lise. Thanks for the pep talk. Do you wanna go with me?" I asked hopeful.

"After ditching him at a bar, I think you need to talk to him on your own girly." She was right and I knew it, though for some reason I was scared. I had gotten so comfortable with Brad and not having to worry about impressing him or keeping up conversation. One on one time with a guy I like but barely knew was a thing I hadn't had to do in a really long time. I got up and headed to my closet.

"I don't know what to wear to one of these things." I said idly thumbing through the tops hanging in front of me.

"Well you are the one who knows all about the geek stuff, but I would say jeans, sneakers, and a cute top will suffice." She responded. "So what is he like?"

I pulled out a pair of neon pink Converse and sighed. "He is...amazing. I don't know how else to explain it. When you talk he listens, like intently. He looks into your eyes and you feel like your melting and it is the best feeling. He is funny and goofy and not afraid to act a little stupid for a laugh and I love that. It's almost refreshing." Oops. I was gushing.

"There it is!" Elise was laughing again.

"What!?"

"The old Addy! Going on and on about the new boy she met and how wonderful he is. It's nice to hear good things about your love life and not just shrugs and grunts!"

"Well I suppose you were right about Brad. Things were just always, ya know, whatever. It was never worth gushing over." I admitted as I pulled some skinny crop jeans and an oversized tee out of my closet and put them on a chair by my bedroom door. "Thank you for your help tonight Elise but it is almost 4 am we should both really hit the hay."

"Alright love. I want to know details as soon as you find them out!"

"Will do. Night Lise"

"Night Addy"

I hung up, put my mug in the sink, and made my way back to my bedroom. I snuggled up under the covers and hoped I would dream of Jack.

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Hey everyone! 

Just wanted to stop in and say hey from me! I don't normally make a habit of writing Fanfic about real people but this story came to me and I happened to be watching a lot of Jacks videos at the time so it just all kind of happened. I hope everyone is enjoying it and feel free to leave any constructive criticism you may have! This chapter was kind of rough for me because I didn't want to bore you guys with a recap but I wanted Addy to have the time to go over her feelings for Jack and give you all some more insight into what her relationship with Brad was really like. 

Anyway thanks for stopping in I will be updating again very soon!

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