Stay With Me

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Ethan's P.O.V

Me and my twin brother both turned 16 in December.
Even though we are the same age, he is a lot more emotionally mature and confident than me - all the girls prefer him over me, and he tends to have a new girlfriend every few months whereas I have never even had my first kiss.

I never really minded, I adore my brother. Despite being twins I feel like his younger sibling.

I love him.

I love him more than my brother, I love him like my soul mate. Every time he brings a girl home, I wish it was me that he would hold and kiss. I did not even think I was bisexual or gay. . but when it comes to him I cannot help myself. I know it is incest and I know it is wrong. . . I cannot stop. I want my brother to love me like I love him, I want him to kiss me and make love to me.

When we were younger, and until we were around 13/14 (right around when he started getting girlfriends), we would play. . he would pin me down and kiss my neck or my ears to make me giggle. We have seen each other naked, and slept in each others arms. We used to practise kissing a lot on each other too until our sister caught us and told our mother.

Now we make YouTube videos together and that brings us very close. I keep falling in love with him in each video we make by just looking at him laughing with that beautiful smile of his.

I am so confused about it all.
I should ONLY love him as my BROTHER. But I can't.

Is it normal to be so in love with my twin? Does he even feel the same way or all these things he was doing to me when we were younger were just for "fun"?

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It was Sunday afternoon, Ethan and Grayson had to shoot their new video so they can edit it on Monday and upload it on Tuesday as always.

Ethan goes to his room to get dressed. He wears his favourite T-shirt and jeans. Then he goes to the bathroom to fix a little bit his hair and sees Grayson with his underwear changing clothes.

Awkward.

"Oh I'm sorry Gray I didn't know you are here." He says nervously and gets out.

After Grayson got ready too he went to get the camera and placed it in front of the couch. He sat there waiting for Ethan.

When Ethan came they started filming.

They were laughing and being goofs all the time as always. Ethan was starring at Grayson with pure lust almost all the time.

"Bro you are hilarious.. you always find a way to make me laugh. I don't know what I would do without you."

Grayson says thinking to cut this part later.

At first Ethan doesn't know how to react, then he gives a little smile and stares at Grayson for a few secs.

Grayson stares back and everything gets uncomfortable.

They were so serious while looking at each other.

Ethan stares on his lips and starts to lean in without controlling it.

Grayson gets confused. Doesn't lean in but stays where he is without saying a word. Couldn't tell if he wants this or not.

Suddenly Ethan's lips are on Grayson's and no one pulls out.

Ethan felt so many feelings. He first was scared. Scared that Gray would pull out. Then he started having those feelings. . you know. . Those feels you have when you finally kiss your crush. Yes they used to kiss each other when they were younger but it was different now. It wasn't like those kissing practises. This time he felt butterflies in his stomach.

The camera was filming everything.
After a few secs Ethan finally pulls out and opens his eyes looking at Grayson having a really confuse look on his face.

No one says anything. Ethan's eyes started watering when he realised what he just did and how wrong that was.

He finally doesn't stare at Grayson anymore. He looks down, then says in a low embarrassed voice "I'm sorry." And immediately runs fast towards his room.

Grayson didn't ran behind him, he just sat there thinking about what just happend. Then he took the camera to see what it recorded.

Seeing Ethan leaning in to his lips didn't looked bad to him. Oh and the kiss. . He was liking that part much more. Yes. He was liking Ethan's lips on his so bad.

He didn't know how to feel while watching this. . Knowing that this was terribly wrong when it just felt so right.

It was kinda clear that they were both secretly having feelings for each other for so long.

Grayson's P.O.V

I can't believe that Ethan kissed me. I mean. . I was having feelings for him but I never thought that he would have too.

His first actual kiss was with me. His twin brother. I don't know how to feel about this. Maybe I should go and talk to him. . He must be sobbing.

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Grayson knocks Ethan's door waiting for a negative response but he doesn't even reply.

He opens slowly the door and sees Ethan with red eyes and tears on his cheeks hugging a pillow really tight.

He sits on the bed and holds his hand.

"Leave me alone please. I don't need anyone." Ethan said scared to look him in the eyes.

"No. I'm not leaving you alone. I would never do that anyways."

"Why?" Ethan said and looked him in the eyes.

"Because you are my brother. . You are my best friend. You are the one who always stays by my side no matter what. You are the person who always makes me smile when I'm sad. You are my everything. And I love you as much as you love me and much more." Grayson let a tear fall while saying that.

"You don't love me the way I love you tho." Ethan said and started crying.

Grayson placed his hand to his jaw and lifted his head up so Ethan can face him.

"How can you be so sure?" He said and leaned in slowly, his lips slowly overlapping Ethans.

This kiss was full of explosions. Ethan felt his stomach churn, but in a good way and he wanted more for some reason.

Grayson kept kissing him more and more causing a make out. He slipped his tongue in slightly, making Ethan moan.

Suddenly Ethan pulls out and says with anxiety:
"What are we gonna tell mum?"

"We are not gonna tell her anything. This is gonna be our little secret." Grayson said and winked.

Ethan smiled and they continued their thing.

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Thats it pretty much. 😂

No ones ever done something like this before. I think.

Idk am I weird for writing this? 😂

Its my first story so I don't know if it's good or not. I hope you liked it.

Idk if you guys want me to continue it, Does it even need a continuity? 😂