I'm Only Smilling On The Outside

showing lies

I am only smiling on the outside because I don't want anyone to see me crying. I don't like letting my emotions out. I hold it in like a winner. When I'm at school I smile. When I'm in the bus I smile, but all of the smiling goes away when I come home. I open the door and I sit down in the dark by myself. When I'm sad I don't eat. The only time I do eat is during school. It's 10:20 pm and my dad came home from work, I think? He's supposed to come home from work at 4 o'clock, I've been worrying where he was, when he finally came home he was drunk. I hate living with an Alcoholic parent. I wish I had a mom. Tomorrow will be just another day of smiling, and telling people I'm fine when I'm really not.