I wasn’t ready to meet him. Not now, not ever. Not after all that has happened between the both of us. And it seemed like he wasn’t prepared as well.
For a moment, we just stood there, facing and eyeing at each other, without saying anything.
I walked pass him but I heard him at the last minute.
“How have you been?” he asked.
I stopped for a while, and without looking back, I managed to say those words with that gnawing feeling inside me.
“I’ve been awake, Nikolai. Thanks to you.”
I walked away, ignoring the tears rolling down my cheek. Leaving him there standing. The man I ever loved, but I know I could never have.
Every step away from him makes me miserable. I know I would have never managed to do it, if it happened 5 years ago. But things change, people change. I still have the same feelings for him and it grows stronger and stronger every second that passed, but I am not the crazy girl who used to please him anymore.
I loved him once, I love him still, and perhaps I will love him forever, but it’s high time for me to move on and wake up from my beautiful dream, just like what he said 5 years ago.
He was my first love, and my sweetest downfall…
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A/N: Pasensya na guys. First time ko talaga magsulat ng story. Pasensya na kung may mga grammatical errors. :)
