Janie is depressed and has considered suicide many time before, but always believed if you do you'll go to hell. Every time she thought about it, it got easier to deal with...a normal person would go talk to their parents about it but is incapable o...
I sat in silence, letting my thoughts overcome me. I never knew the pain would get so bad that I couldn't breathe, but then again all I deserve is pain.
I fell against my bed struggling to breathe, I was used to this.
My mind felt empty now, nothing could help me.
After a few more minutes I decided to get ready for school, I hate it their. Everyone thinks they are better than everyone else and truth is they're not, I only have a semester left and then I'm off to college...unless things happen before that.
Which odds are they will...
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I finished getting dressed, which consisted of: a blue pocket shirt, black skinny jeans, a black headband, black rimmed glasses, brown and plaid Doc Martens, and a brown satchel.
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I slid my hair into a side braid, and let down a few strands to structure my face. The doorbell to my small apartment sounded and I leisurely walked to the door, I opened the door and no one was their. This actually happened often, people would ridiculously ding-dong ditch me. The thing is that they are some people in my grade.
Not only that but I live alone so it makes it ten times funnier, I guess cause everyone thinks nobody wants me...but thats not the case. My parents are dead, they got into an accident on a vacation.
The only thing that saved me from living on the streets was a secret bank account my dad had for me in case of emergencies. He does have other bank accounts but I can't get into those until I turn eighteen. I was worried I would be put into foster care, but the court had a special jury that allowed me in my own apartment.
I closed the door and walked over to the fruit bowl and grabbed a banana. My school starts at 7:25 and right now it is 6:45, after I finish my banana I grab my Jan sport, car keys, and wallet. My car was originally my dads but I got it once he passed on, the actual car itself is a white Ford Shelby mustang. Everyone thought it was cool for the first week or so then they got to know me, and well it wasn't as cool.
I locked up the apartment and was now sitting in my car, the engine roared to life and I pulled it out of park and into drive. The car ride was fast like normal, which I hated...or I just hated going to school, either way.
The parking lot was full when I got their, I went to my assigned parking spot which was a few rows from the door and right next to Trevor Montgomery. He was the notorious bad boy; good looks, bad reputation, and a huge flirt. Most girls have slept with him excluding me, I would never sleep with him.
I get out of my car in a swift motion and grab my bag out of the passenger seat, like normal the guys along with Trevor are all looking at me strangely and it aggravates me that I can't just tell them to stop staring. I don't why I can't I just don't have enough nerve to, I guess. While I walked into school a few girls glared at me as normal, but I ignore them...they are nothing compared to Leah Sanchez.
