Phan

The beginning

Dan was always very good at procrastinating. He didn't realise he'd do it untill the end of the day when he'd finally close his laptop and look around. His house was messy ...no not just messy...filthy. With Phil being out of the country he hadn't really done much not that he had before for that matter but the past week had been extreme.He had been feeling empty. He soon realised that without Phil the house didnt feel lively and fun like it used to be. It didn't feel like home.

Dan was always a dark souled person. He liked black and socialising with people wasn't his speciality. Yet he secretly cared for everyone around him, infact he cared too much. The last couple of months he realised he had fallen in love with his roomate. That thought scared him...just before he had met Phil the only best friend he'd had was his pet dog. It was thanks to phil that he discovered what true friendship meant and also his career. Youtube was his life and so was Phil. He couldn't believe what was happening. He had been living with Phil for ages. Why this moment? why now? He couldn't understand and this was making him stressed out. He might have aswell had an existential crisis because that would have been better than his non stop ongoing mind who couldn't seem to take phil off his mind. His image was planted in his mind. His cute little face, his big blue eyes, his tinted blue hair. He seemed so close yet he was on the other side of the world. The only way he could talk to him was through skype and that didn't seem to really work out as the time zones were different and Phil had been busy travelling. And does skyping Phil really justify his needs? The answer is no. It doesn't.

Dan was flat face on the bed. He liked it that way. It helped him think. At that moment he wanted to decapitate his mind. Instant thoughts about suddenly blurting out to Phil that he liked him....loved him and leading to his imminent doom were starting to form in his mind. He really cherished what they had. They were friends thats all and he made up his mind that thats how it was gonna stay. Until he started remembering how much he missed Phil. He couldn't quite describe the feeling but it's like his heart was half empty and whenever Phil was around it became full again. Crap. He had it fallen for Phil.

Who could really blame Dan though? Phil was like a tiny puppy who you'de just want to squish and play with. Not to mention that he literally liked everything Dan liked. Dan had thought he was the only insane person out there enjoying pokemon and video games as a grown adult ...untill he met Phil. It hadn't taken them less than 5 minutes to really hit it off and Dan was feeling closer to him than he had been with any other being on this entire planet. They read the same books and watched the same shows. It was like a dream come true and yet here he was lying face flat in a dark cold room.

If it had been another week without Phil, I'm pretty sure he would not have been able to function. Luckily he only had to wait another day. He didn't know what to do. He didn't want to end their friendship beacuse of some silly crush he had because it was the best thing that had happend to him in his entire life but then again his heart was telling him otherwise and you know what they say. Always follow your heart.

I have no idea if that was any good or not. But yeah hope you enjoyed that. Should i continue writing? Idk