Once upon a time I met a guy. He’s the reason why I smile, but now he's the reason why I cry, why I am sad and why I am look new good. We started that we didn’t know each other; all I know is his name. When January 31, 2013 turns, I met him personally in an occasion with the help of my best buds. We start with one Hi and Hello. We felt mutual as a friend, like really know each other. At the end of the night, he get my number, he texted me. Weeks and days passed by, he confess with me, something that I really do shock, that I really don't know what should I reply, it was surprising me, and I don’t know why but I was shy to face him. I felt something that I don’t know. I talked to him slowly and said “We better to know each other first.” and he agree. Days passed by, I give him a chance to be my suitor. We’re dating once or twice a week, and we text at the whole night. He kiss me on my forehead as a respect. He kissed me on my lips as loving me truly. He spins me around like I didn’t know he can do. I command him to buy a max candy but instead he gave me a chocolate cake and when I open it, I saw “I love you” that makes me feel thrilled. I love you is more sweet than his chocolate cake. When March 4, 2013 turns at exactly 7:19 in the evening, He becomes my official Boyfriend. Starting that night I can say that he’s really mine and I really do love this guy whose make me feel crazy every time I talked to him. He makes me smile even when he say the worst words that can makes me irritate. The first time I say to him “I love you”, unexpectedly but I was surprised when he turns it back. He can do to kissed me, cuddle me and hug me even on a public places. And for some, I turn it back. Loving him is infinity and loving him has a purpose. But all things, all relationships has an end. Everything will stop for some reasons. Everything will change and everything will be okay for the right time. When March 27, 2013 turns, it was deadly sunny day when I decided to talk to him personally. I was hoping that we’ll be okay. But I failed, I failed, maybe because he doesn’t really care or he really doesn't love me? I asked him if there’s a new one, he said no. Are you disgust or satiety with me, he replied no. Do you love me, he said yes. When I asked him again for the last time, do you really want to stop this? He can’t answer faster as I want, I repeat a lot of times until he said yes. On my mind, I wish we'll be okay. But I fail again with another boy. My eyes shed from my tears and without any hesitation I walk away from his place and suddenly cried aloud for his non reason I knew about. I was desperate for those words I heard from him but I should need to move on. He said “He loves me”, but why he suddenly leaves and disappear? Why he breaks his words? Why he decided to break up even if I had no answer? I do not do anything that he can be angry or I didn’t start a quarrelling. I want everything will be okay, but no. Even we didn’t fight every day. This relationship will end for a non-sense reason. I miss him so much. I miss his nose, I want to pinch it. I’m craving for his nose. I miss his being stubborn, his sweetness and his voice. I miss the way he talked to me. I miss the way he say his sweet words. I miss his being his girlfriend, his someone he really loves. He caught my heart. He caught my attention. He caught everything to me. Why I miss him? I miss him because I really do love him. I miss him because his the one I think. But missing him is a sort of moving on. Missing him is a sort of loving him truly. Loving him is not infinity but is just a chapter of my life. I am thankful to having like a guy like him. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for a short time of happiness. But I’m wishing and hoping that this feeling would not be endless instead it will be a lesson that “No relationships is forever.” Be happy and contented of what we have. Our friendships and closeness is more important, this status would be infinity and endless. Am I right? God bless and take care. Have a nice day.
