Phan songs 1

Part 1 Love yourself

For all the times that you rain on my parade

Dan was very excitable and always ready to try something new. But everytime  Dan tried to get Phil to do something with him like skiing or mini golf, Phil would always say it was lame or for baby's. That really hurt Dan's feelings.

And all the clubs you get in using my name

The clubs weren't a problem. Phil relentlessly used Dan's name to get free stuff and he used Dan's Netflix without asking. Dan didn't really think to much about it until one night when they were out Phil used it to try and flirt his way to a free drink.

You think you broke my heart, oh, girl for goodness' sake

Dan was heart broken. He never thought that Phil Lester would do such a thing. But here he was. Dan had never felt this way about anyone Before. He only wanted to know the best of Phil and here he was getting the worst.

You think I'm crying on my own. Well, I ain't

Dan was miserable for days, weeks even but then it hit him. He couldn't let someone like Phil ruin his life. He was on cloud nine he was the one who had it better.

And I didn't wanna write a song

He wasn't writing a song per say he was writing an expressive poem to show his emotions. He was writing what he felt and there was nothing wrong with that.

Cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care. I don't,

As much as Dan didn't fully want to care he did to some extent but Phil didn't have to know that. He didn't have to know that he though Phil was the love of his life because surely he wasn't. Or maybe he was but for now Daniel James Howell "Didn't Care"

But you still hit my phone up

Phil still called Dan. Late nights when he needs Dan's love.[ See what I did there]But Dan never answered he always let it go to voicemail. He though a few times of changing it to "Hi this is Dan Howell. If this is Phil Lester Please don't call but if you are not the tax man or Phil Lester i'll call you back. Bye now.

And, baby, I be movin' on

Dan tried and oh did he try but he still listened to those late night voice mails and read the old texts over and over until he had every word memorize. Dan loved Phil. Never really stopped but he knew it wasn't a heathy relationship. He had to bet the better bigger man. He had to find someone new.

And I think you should be somethin' I don't wanna hold back,

Dan put everything into Phil. His time and his money. His heart and his food. His fridge was always empty. Phil ate everything. When I say everything I mean everything. Dan always had an empty fridge.

Maybe you should know that

Phil was informed these things bothered Dan. But he let it be. He said Dan was a wimp. He said Dan needed to man up. Dan always felt like Phil only wanted him for his things and his time. Which was partially true.

My mama don't like you and she likes everyone

Dan's mother never understood his relationship with Phil. Phil would stand Dan up. Dan would call night after crying and heartbroken. Yet time after time Dan forgave Phil. Phil took everything for granted.

And I never like to admit that I was wrong

Dan asked people not to say I told you so or I knew he was not good for you. Dan felt terrible he had no judgement. He couldn't believe this was happening to him.

And I've been so caught up in my job,

Dan was so focused on YouTube and poured his heart and soul and his feelings into his videos. He put everything into his job so he didn't focus on Phil as much. Now that he didn't have Phil to worry about and his job he felt sad but more free.

Didn't see what's going on

He was so focused on the good things he didn't see the bad. Even though they had so many fights Dan saw past them.

 But now I know,

People pulled Dan aside and asked him how he did it. They saw the way Phil spoke to Dan and the way they interacted. Dan never realized. It became normal to them.

I'm better sleeping on my own

Dan told himself he was better by himself. He told himself he was better off with himself.

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