My name is Marie and I am a high school senior. I've been my boyfriend for over a year. But the story of us is darker than it seems, filled with suicidal contemplations and neglect. His name is Joseph and I love him.
It is now February, we've been dating long and strong. But, I don't know what it is, I just feel like we should break up. It's not him and he never cheated or abused me, my problem is all I thrive for is his happiness. The smile on his face is all I need to feel the warm feeling in my heart. I feel like he deserves better than me. He's just a ray of perfection hidden amongst depression and mystery that everyone sees in him. I just couldn't take it no more, I wanted to set him free, he's just so hard to make happy when he's depressed and I felt I failed a girlfriend. I dumped him, it's as straight as that.
A few days passed and he seemed absent from school. The first day I thought it was nothing, but later a whole week passed with not a single peep from him. I grew worried and got curious about what was wrong. I went to his house and one of his older sisters was out front, with a depressed look on her face. I asked her what happened to Joseph. What she said, made my heart start pounding hard as my eyes watered."He died," she said as her voice started cracking, "He commit suicide." I was lost in words and tried very hard not to cry out in the pain my heart was producing. She showed me a piece of paper and handed it to me. "This is for you," she says. "I think he wrote this before he died." I opened up the paper and what was written was this.
Marie,
I love you. I never wanted to let you go but you let me go instead. I can't live without you. You were the only person who ever truly cared about me. I can't seem to live in this kind of reality so it seems this is my last resort. Farewell, my love.-Joseph
I started crying so hard, I cried for hours and my eyes were feeling sore. However, at this point in my life, I knew I had not a single choice but to cope with this and move on. Did I feel like I should commit suicide myself? Yes, I did but I didn't have the courage to ever do it so I was left with no choice. I felt like I wasn't done with living my life, so I feel I should keep going.
Oddly enough, after that day, I felt I was being watched all the time, even when I'm alone. I didn't think anything of it, though, I moved on because I thought it was just my depression fucking with me. Sooner or later I became accustomed to the feeling as if it was nothing.
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Short StoryShort story about a girl who died from a ghost who was in love and filled with envy. Is his her fault? That's up to you.