I Pick You

Part 17: 11:11

I continuously thought of the party I was planning to set up, to sabotage both Lia and Cameron, but I thought that I needed much more people to come to that party. I may not be as hot, or popular, or as good-looking as Lia, I am much more obnoxious than she is, and I don't think anyone realizes the truth. The advantage of being much more obnoxious than Lia, is better than being as popular or as hot as her, because you can sabotage her more and make her life feel like a living hell for her, because that's where she belongs, right? She's this little devil, everyone thinks is an angel. 

"Hey, so the party is still happening right?" Cameron privately messaged me, an evil little smirk formed on my lips and I couldn't help thinking what my plan is to sabotage them, until I'm happy with the way it is. I just want  one more, one more chance on being happy. Every 11:11, I ask for happiness, but in return I get sadness that does not go away, and is always stuck in my mind, but not on my face. How so? Because I always form a fake smile, making everyone think I'm okay, but not that they care, because if there is someone still caring for me in this world, it would preferably Arian. He loves me, and I don't think he realizes that I actually know now. I do, and I don't think I can give back the amount of love he's giving and gave in the past, because I don't think my heart is made for loving any more. I think it's only here to support me to live, because if I die, my heart dies with me, and I've always thought that my heart has a separate life than I do, and has an actual heart inside of my heart, and has it's own drama, and  f I die, it will die too, and I do not think it cares when I die. I think it only cares if she dies because she has her own life. She's only keeping me alive, for the sake of her life, and not mine. I think it wishes to the stars for happiness, and wishes random things at 11:11. We probably have our own lives, but different paths.. Just like me and Cameron. I'm trying to go to the path of loving him, but he's running away to the path of loving me back.. And I accept that, because many have and had already ran away from my love. Now look who's begging.

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-Lmao, I forgot who the cast is and the plot is in my own book. I've also been lacking inspiration to continue this book, but I'll do it, because this has over 1k reads, and I do not want to waste 17 parts of this book for nothing. But PLEAAAAAAAASE do read my new, active book, "How I survived This Heartbreak." -