Depressed

I want to run away,

I want to cry,

The emotions I have,

I can't even describe,

I want to disappear,

I want to hide,

What I want right now,

Is to escape from my life,

I feel so distant,

Push the people I love away,

Not realizing I'm hurting them,

Each and every day,

I need the time to sort through things,

Make things better for myself,

I feel so depressed,

And I only feel like its going to get worse within time itself,

I don't understand why this is happening to me,

I just want to slit my wrists,

And make them bleed,

I want to take away the pain,

I don't deserve to be like this,

I want the bad things to go away,

I just want it to stop,

I want to feel like myself again,

I want to be happy,

I want to stop having to always pretend,

I want to be the person I want,

Not the person I'm not,

I want to just be happy,

I want to change the way I'm living my life,

I want to feel wanted,

As if I really matter,

I want to be noticed,

Not be put on the back burner,

I feel like I am always doing things wrong,

Like I am the worst person in the world,

The only person that makes me smile,

Is the love of my life: my girl,

I feel so connected to her,

I never wanna lose her,

If I lost her,

My life would tragically be over,

All I want is to get the attention that I feel that I need right now,

From my family and my friends,

But I know I'll never get that,

But I am not going to put my life to an end,

Even if it takes a long time,

I will work through this by myself,

Even if I never do,

Even if people help me out,

This feeling is something that I feel like I can't escape,

I feel like its a demon,

Who's trying to take my faith,

I don't know what it is,

That's making me feel this way,

Maybe it's just me,

Pushing everyone I love away....