A Girls Dream

Christine's POV

There are days, where you better not wake up. Days like this one. Normally, the first thing, i am doing, is to go wash my teeth and drink my coffee. But today, i just couldn't. I finally realized, that he is gone. That the love of my life decided to leave me behind.

It's hard to wake up and to see all the picture still on the wall. I just couldn't take them down yet. There is still hope, that we will find a way to sort things out. Like, he could ask me to go with him... He never told me what the hell was going on. He just said, that us, couldn't work anymore. But why? I ask me that question since, two weeks now... Yes, he's gone for two weeks now and i still don't have an answer to my question. Is it so hard to just tell the women you one loved, why you don't care about her anymore? I don't think so. But for today, i will do, like nothing happened. I will do, like he never was in my life... It's better like that. I'm just so disappointed in everyone.... But you will understand that, when you see how they are all acting around me.

12 o'clock, i need to finally go out a little bit. I wasn't out there for a long time. People might think i passed away. I can't let them think that. But it's hard... it's hard to get out there and try to act, like nothing did happen...

„Jenny!", someone screams. I don't look around me, because i don't think it's me, that the person wants to talk to.

After a few minutes, or seconds, i can hear that someone is just behind me. I start to walk faster, you never know who is behind you. Maybe a mass killer. Like the one they talked about a few weeks ago. Or was it months? I kind of lost, the feeling of, time.

„You are Jenny McCloud no?", the voice asks me. Where the hell, does that person, know my name from? What is going on?

Without turning me around, i start to walk a little faster again. I don't trust people, who screams my name and that i don't know. Ok, i didn't turn around, who's the person following me. But maybe it's better to not do it and to just continue walking.

„You are Brians ex-girlfriend? Or should i say fiancee?", the person asks. Nobody knows, that Brian and i were engaged. Except, for his friends, my friends and our families. So who the hell, is that person.

„Maybe, but who are you?", i reply, while walking. I don't want to stop, if i continue to walk, i can escape, if i stop, I'm lost.

„I'm Matt, one of his best friends and... yeah... best friends.", he reply's to me.

What? His best friend? He did talk to me about a Matt, but what does this Matt Guy do here? Why is he following me? Did something happen to Brian? I start to panic, what you can clearly see, at the way how i walk.

„I need to talk to you miss McCloud.", he speaks again. Gosh... to think, that normally, i was supposed to be Miss Haner in a few weeks... I still can't believe, that it will not happen. I have planed the whole wedding... the invitations are also all out... i still need to stop everything... or did someone do it for me?

„What do you want? I don't want to talk about him.", i answer in an angry voice. I am not ready yet to talk about Brian. Maybe, i could get now an answer to my question. To the question, why he left me. But i am not sure, if i really want to hear it.

„Brian needs you.", is everything, this Matt person says. Why does he need me? He left me... he left me behind, like... Like, if i was nothing. Our wedding... Did he ever really want to marry me? Make me his bride? His wife? I have so much to tell him...

„He needs me? He left me! He doesn't need me... all he needs is himself.", I answer in an really angry voice. I'm not used to that. I'm not used, that i can be so angry. But how would you react in a moment like that?

„I can understand you... but... here is my number... if you ever want to talk, or to have answers...", he says and gives me his phone number in my hands, from behind me. I don't like that... I don't know what to think anymore.

I was supposed to go out. To visit my friends, to get some news, of what i missed those two weeks. But now... i just want to go home. Go home and sit in frond of my television, watch a sad movie and cry my eyes out. Will this pain ever go away?

„He loves you.", this Matt guy says, before he leaves. Gosh.... i want so much to believe him, but if it was true, Brian would never have left me.... not like this.

Matt's POV

I've just met Christine. The women, my best friend is crazy about. And i understand why. But I don't get it, why he didn't tell her, the truth, when he left. She is so in love with him, i could see it. I could see it by her reactions. She misses him a lot. She would do a lot to get their relationship to work again. But she doesn't even know what's going on.

„Brian! You need to tell her...", i say to Brian, who is sitting in front of me. The look in his eyes... i can't even tell if he's still alive.

„Earth to Brian!", i yell, after he doesn't react to my fort sentence.

„Oh, Matt... sorry, i wasn't here with my thoughts. Did you tell her....", he just asks me. Without even looking at me. What the hell... Ok, i should be knowing him... That's totally Brian.

„Brian i met her, she is angry....and in pain. She still loves you. Why don't you go after her and tell her what did happen. I bet, she would fall in your arms and kiss you.", i tell him, my point of view of the whole thing.

Brian takes a long time to think before he reply's.

„I can't.", are his last words, before he goes back at his room. Idiot, is all i can think.

Brian's POV

Matt has easy to talk. It's not him that needs to explain, what happened. I don't even know, how i could tell her. No! I didn't cheat on her. But I think, she will take it the same way. I mean by that, that, she will react the same way. Even if what did happened wasn't that ... I don't know how to describe it.

After Matt told me, what happened, I just couldn't stay in the same room. He would ask me more questions and i just wasn't ready. I just heard, that the love of my life, must hate me.

A few minutes, after i left Matt, i get out of my Room. Just to see, that Matt isn't there anymore. But i guess, he was right to leave. I am the stupidest man, walking on earth. I left the love of my life, a few weeks before our wedding, because of some really stupid stuff. I think you will all kill me, when i tell you what did happen. I just hope, that one day, i will find the power, to get her back. I will never love a woman, like i love her. She is my everything. She is the most important thing to me. She is even more important to me, then music. And i say that as a musician. A really good musician by the way.