Why even look?

Prolouge

                                                                       Aliyah 

  
         This world is so cruel . Just waiting to break down a person . I thought I was strong willed but I was wrong . Is something wrong with me? Is that the reason why they hurt me? I'm just not good enough. 

        I wish I can close my eyes and just disappear forever. Maybe everything will be better that way. I try so hard to be the best that I can be. Can I be accepted for once? I want to be truly happy.

       Is love even real? What is love? Maybe it's just an overused emotion. Parts of me want to give up but the other part just want to find hope. That someday I will finally be happy. Which is the right way to go? If I give up I won't feel pain anymore , but what if the right person comes along and I don't treat them the way they're suppose to? 

So many thoughts and questions going through my mind. The good and the bad . Maybe I think I should try one last time , if it works then great if not then I'll give up no matter what comes along .