Heart of Two (HUNHAN)

Thoughts

Sehun was in trouble having to differentiate his feelings. From worried to lovesick to frustrated.
Baekhyun had forced him to choose between him and Luhan. To be exact break it off with Luhan.

But that was when Baekhyun was sure he didnt have feelings for Luhan.

But. Does Sehun really dont have feelings for Luhan?

He felt like someone just squeezed his heart every single time he thought of Luhan. The way he had felt whenever he was with him. The heart going incredibly crazy.

His deer like eyes beneath all that eyeliner. His kindness beneath his cold bossy look.

Sehun buried his head into his hands and let out a deep sigh. He couldn't seem to let even one of them go. He wasn't ready. From all this thinking, guilt rose from underneath his heart.

How could he have build something with Luhan when he was still with Baekhyun? The point was how could Luhan even catch his eye after meddling with so many men in the past. Sehun didn't know. From all the men from the club that he had played with, Luhan seemed to have found a place of his own in Sehun's heart.

The first he caught his eye was the smirk he gave when he opened the door. The confidence that beat Sehun. The whole mysterious scent kept Sehun craving for more even though he didn't even know Luhan for long.

What about Baek?
He had known him two years ago. Had been together for two years. He, had also catched Sehun's heart in a firm grip. With his innocent smile. His laugh that made Sehun felt like cloud nine. Those feelings all these years were ofcourse unforgettable.
Baekhyun was just a normal guy. Who loves singing and rambling.
What made Sehun love him, he wasn't sure. Baekhyun just crept up on him one day. And Sehun realized he couldnt go on without that smile.

What could have gone wrong all this time? Sehun wondered to himself.
If his relationship with Baekhyun was secure enough, this would not have happened. Was his love not enough for Baekhyun that he rather spilt some for Luhan?

Sehun had his answer.

"Can you get Luhan for me?"
He said to his assistant on the right.

"Ofcourse sir."
He answered and strolled along to the outside.

Sehun had his heart threatening to get out of his body as he endured the long wait. He was going to do it. No matter what happens.

He felt his heart skipped a beat the moment the door opened. Footsteps were sounded and there he was. In his sweater and ragged jeans, his brown hair swept to the side, his hands in his pockets as he walked through the door and onto the seat opposite Sehun's.
His eyeballs darted around the room as he scanned his surroundings.

Luhan's movement were so lightly when he crossed his legs and leaned his arms to set his head on one of his hands.
"You called for me?"
He cocked an eyebrow.

There, there , his cocky attitude came back on, burying  his fragile side neatly beneath the ground.
Sehun thought as he flexed his fingers nervously.

When Sehun made no movement to speak, Luhan said again.
"This better be important, I came all the way and canceled all my events for-"

"It is important."
Sehun cut in.

And Luhan raised his eyebrows as he waited.

"I.. I need to know what happened between you and Baekhyun."

"Why? It's none of your business."
Luhan replied coldly.

"Because apparently he hate you so much that he wanted me to break it off with you right away."

That had Luhan in silence.

"Then break it off. We were a fake couple anyway. Are you worried about your reputation?"
Luhan said after a long pause. His fingers were gripped so tightly onto his jeans that his knuckles had turned white.

Sehun stared at him in disbelief.
"Is it... That easy to break it off? Rather than just tell me what is going on?"

"Well, no real feelings. Have you forgotten what we first promised?"Luhan said. But he wasn't looking at Sehun.

"Well apparently I couldn't keep the promise because I have fallen in love with you!"
Sehun shouted as he stared directly into Luhan's eyes.

Luhan seemed to have been out of words to say. His mouth kept gaping open but he couldn't speak.

"Nothing to say?"
Sehun whispered.

Luhan bit his lips and said.
"Im sorry."

Sehun was fighting not to let his tears drop. Not now. Now in front of Luhan.

"I knew you wouldn't want to be with me. But I already said it. No taking back. I have decided. To wait for you no matter what. Im not giving up on you just yet."

"And Baekhyun?"

"I think , to the matter of this point, we wouldn't be having this conversation if I had truly loved him."

Luhan squeezed his eyes shut as he whispered quietly but enough for Sehun to catch what he was saying.

"You don't even know me."

"I was willing to try."
Sehun pleaded.

A pregnant pause took place as the both of them did not say anything. Just letting the tense atmosphere took over them.

And suddenly Luhan whispered.
"I already have a boyfriend."

Sehun gaped at him, unable to believe what he just heard.
"Are..are you making this up? To stop me from waiting?"

"No. Im telling the truth. Im sorry."

Sehun just stared into the nothing as he said.
"So no feelings at all?"

Luhan looked at the ground with a guilty look on his face.
"No.. "

He took a deep breath before saying.
"We should.. Stop seeing each other. I will pretend this conversation never happened. You could go back to Baekhyun. We live our own ways. Im sorry. And er thanks for everything."

And Luhan had walked out the door before Sehun could say anything, leaving Sehun attacked once more by his own mind.

A/N: pay back for long non updates?