Loving The Gamer (A DanTDM Fanfiction)

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Warning- This chapter will contain lots of self-harming and lots of suicidal thoughts and a suicide so if you are sensitive to this kind of stuff I suggest you leave the chapter now

Thanks!💓

Jemma POV:

It was the night time. I knew what I was going to do. I was going to kill myself. Being used for all those men, forced to put on shows, and having my feelings toyed with, it's too much.

I remember when in college, I fell in love with this guy. His name was Evan. We were the main OTP and we were a cute couple.

Then, he left us. He just, left. He, left. He just left and was never seen again. I tried everything. Calling, texting, missing person report, and nothing.

I thought suicide was the answer. But it all just ended up with me being admitted into a mental hospital. Although, I made this friend named Channon Rose.

That is the one good things about that mental hospital. Now that I look back at it, I kinda wish I was successful and that I had gone through with it, so now, I didn't have to relive it.

I walked all the way to the London bridge. I went to the top of it. This time, no pills. I'm jumping. Dan has no control if I jump, but with pills, jumping is easier.

I guess when I got to the top of the building, someone knew my plan. The one and only Luna was there, on her phone playing a game. Flappy Bird?

No, it wasn't a game. It was Dan's new app. Why? It's like the world wants me to kill myself. If God doesn't make mistakes, then why am I here?

"Why hello Jemma." Luna can make any person bow down to her with just her voice. I thought she had no power, and that she wasn't a threat to me.

I roll up my sleeve to present her my scars. "You did this." She looked utterly offended, but did I care? All that I care about is that soon, all of this will be over.

"Not even a hello? Want to know something?" Before I could even answer her, she replied with, "I didn't come alone."

Out came out Kennedy and Jonathan. And one person on a chair, tied up. "Do you remember him?" Kennedy asked with a voice that sounded like she was going to cry.

"They made me capture him." If it's anyone from college, I will jump off right here in front of whomever this is. They should see how weak I am, it will be over soon anyway.

"This person, you dated before me." Jonathan says. See, Kennedy, Jonathan and I all went to the same high school. And there was only one person I dated before I dated Jonathan.

"If that's Evan..." They took off his blindfold to reveal who it was. Funny how I was just thinking about him and my suicide attempt and boom, here he is.

"Oh my..." That's it.

I go to the ledge. "Goodbye."

I jumped.

No stopping me now.

"Jemma no!"

I'm literally crying while writing this😭💔😞

-Noemi