Tears Of Winter

                Day by day, the years pass while we were together. I was the only one who stayed the same, wasn't I? The spring passed, flowers bloomed... I stayed right by you. Summer went on, the heat calmed... I stand here still the same. As autumn went by, I wished everything would stay the same, our happiness, our joy, our love, our time. Then, winter came. The winds are truly cold, yet I said to myself "As long as you're with me, I will always be warm."

                   "It didn't have to come to this." I said, "Please, stay!" I said. Did these word really reach you? Days then pass, as I blinked...you were gone. I want to move on, I want to but seeing you with someone else hurts, it's so cold... so cold the it numbs me. I would take walks, thinking where did I go wrong? Sitting down, I look up at the sky... I breathe out, nothing but plain vapor, I can't- I can't breathe in. It hurts, this ache in my heart the pain in my throat, this cold on my cheek. Thinking back to then, were all our smiles, tears, pain and joy...a lie? If all our time together was a lie with a mask of happiness, a dream. Then I hope I would keep on dreaming this dream with you.

             Sitting there, thinking and thinking only to have this pain repeat itself over and over a billion times. I closed my eyes, letting my tears seep through. As it goes down my face, it stopped...it's so cold... I just want this to end, to stop, to just rest...I want everything to stop. Even now, I can't even move forward. Snow Flakes fell gently on my head, as I sat there on the bench, engulfing myself with the cold, the pain of losing you, the cold cold tears. I wish you would comeback, yet you can't...

                                                     All I want now, is to just disappear, away from this cold in my heart and let the seasons pass, peacefully~