Since the incident with the cheating of Ren I've left Tokyo on the same day apologized to Reira and hoped she'll understand which she did. Nobody knew where I disappeared within the night nobody but Reira.
She promised me to keep quiet and will wait till I'll return to her side.
Keeping it a secret from the band, Trapnest, was a heavy burden for her but I know I can trust her.
Reira bit me farewell as I left the starry night with a broken heart on the station and tears.
Days and months have passed and and still my thoughts are by him. I'm such a fool to believe he'll love me when his heart is set for her. Nana. I didn't know how long I'm siting here alone surrounded by darkness, loneliness and coldness. Closing my eyes I still the scene right before me. Please stop this. I have enough. I try to cut ties with him but as it seems it will be trouble. Sighing I lean back as suddenly music started to play out loud. Reira's angelic voice clear as the ocean and foreign. I feel if I haven't heard it in a long time.
Trapnest - Butterfly
Closing my eyes I listen to the lyrics feeling the intense atmosphere. Why is Ren still in my mind? Shaking my head I turn around holding the pillow against my chest.
Stay with me tonight
Widening my eyes I bite my lips. What if I can't return to the job as her personal assistant. Everything which I ever hoped and prayed for has broken within a single night and it ended with the man I've loved all along cheating. I can't return anymore to the point where I choose the wrong path which was not a professional step. Outta nowhere the door is getting hit multiple times. Groaning in annoyance I stand up opening the door. As the moon light illuminates these people I'm speechless. They've come. Trapnest.
Reira is beaming at me taking gently my hands in her "Can we come in? If someone sees us it'll be trouble!" Asks Takumi and enters the apartment. Nodding my head I welcome them. What Idiots. They ran away just to get me. Glancing up to Ren I meet his dark eyes before looking away from his suffering face. Don't give me this look. As I enter the living room Reira was closing the curtains. Takumi dims the light down "A little private concert for our beloved (F/N)" Says Naoki and smiles brightly as he turns the Music player off. Ren sits on the coach playing his guitar and smoking his cigarette just like usual.
Within seconds Reira begun to fill these empty apartment with life and love as she sings a little pain. Everyone. Thank you. Tears escaped my long eyelashes as I kept clapping with the rythem. Afterwards she begun to Sing Butterfly and my Heart pounded. I didn't realize that I was staring at Ren. Gulping I listened to their sound which reached in the depths of my heart. After one hour playing the private concert they stopped exhausted. I applauded and smiled at them "Wonderful!" I say and hug Naoki "You guys wanna something to drink?" I asks and walk to the kitchen "No will be going now. We wanted that you know that we haven't forgotten you" says Reira slight embarrassed before dragging Naoki and Takumi with her out leaving me with Ren. Naoki turns around pointing towards Ren "Is it OK if he sleeps here? Well be going to eat something but he insisted that he wants to spend time with you." Says Naoki and run away with Reira before I could answer. Closing the door I turn around and see him laying on the coach. Exhausted. Did he lose weight? Brushing my hair away from my face I look at him. I have nothing to say to the man right I front of my eyes. How did it go down like this "It's better if you go in a hotel" I whisper and still focusing on his face "I don't want to. It's to noisy. Isn't it alright if I sleep here?" He asks. Still from this distance I see his suffering eyes "Goodnight!" I whisper before going to my bed. Why is it turning out like that?
Laying down I look up at the ceiling. I can't sleep at all. It's past midnight and still I'm laying awake in the bed. Did I hope Ren would come to me? Deep inside of me I did. A sudden noisy sound interrupted my train of thoughts. Standing up I follow the sound which leads me to the bathroom where Ren is laying in the tub. Gasping I stand at the door frame watching him intensely. He is quiet and lays like an embryo. Gently I go to the tub and lean in "If you sleep here you'll get sick. Ren!" I say and grab his hand to pull him out from the freezing porcelain. Outta nowhere he lays his head against my chest falling asleep immediately or so I thought. I won't be fooled by you. Again. I try ro break free from his strong grip "Stay with me tonight!" He whispers before taking my hand in his "I won't be played by you again!" I hiss and step back. Tears are Welling up "Not again" I add and break down onto my knees. Shining tears dropping onto the floor as Ren is Kneeling opposite of me. His arms are guiding me to his chest where he caress my hair and whispers comforting words "Stay with me tonight" he whispers against my ear before placing a soft kiss on my forehead.
