The Day I Found True Love

Chapter 11: Unresolved Emotions

As Jackson and I drove home we spoke about so much....it felt like I was getting a lot closer to him now, than a few hours ago and I really liked it...it all felt right and I felt like it was all going to work out from this point onwards.

I couldn't help but think about Sophie and wonder if she's okay... I felt so guilty, I really mean. I just wanted one of her amazing hugs again... I missed her so much... I missed everything about her... I couldn't take it anymore, I picked up the phone eagerly and called her.

All I could think about was hearing her voice again... I needed to hear her voice. The phone just rang... She never picked up, where was she, what was she doing... I hope she's okay.. I found my self in a panicked state

I went back to where Jackson was, and he noticed that I seemed sorrowful and sad. "Sophie are you alright?" I couldn't find the words to say anything, I just kept my head down and shook it and I felt a tear run down my cheek.

I felt Jackson wrap his and around me and hold me tight against him as the tears spilled out my eyes. Jackson just held me tight and didn't let go until he heard my sobbing stop. "I don't know what I did wrong...I didn't mean to be rude to her...I just..I just...I don't know" I couldn't find the words for how I felt. I just felt so hurt and broken, like a giant piece of me was missing.

Just as I stopped crying completely Jackson walked me over to the couch, sat me down, and went to go make a cup of tea for me. He came back to me and looked at me in the eye and asked, " do you want me to take you to Sophie? " I couldn't believe what he was asking, I was so stunned and shocked, I didn't really know how to react.

I think he noticed my reaction and came over and rubbed his hand against my back soothingly," don't over think it, but still think it through" there words just didn't seem to want to come out of my mouth, I was trying to say 'yes' so badly but I just couldn't, why couldn't I?

I felt a tear escape...and I forced the word 'yes' out, it came out more like a whisper, I hope Jackson heard me because I don't think I'll be able to say it again...I stared at Jackson waiting for him to give me a sign that he heard me, but he seemed to not have

I just got up and walked go the kitchen and he followed behind and just when I thought I lost all hope of seeing Sophie again, he asked me if I know where she lives, and I found a little smile creeping up onto my face.

I gave him the address from my phone as quickly as possible, I was really eager to see her. I still hasn't been able to talk again, I felt completely tongue tied. I waited patiently as Jackson got the address on his phone and followed behind him go his car.

The car ride was silent, while music played softly in the background. As the trees passed by I found myself slowly drifting into a sleepy state. I woke up abruptly when I heard a loud crash, and right before my eyes was two cars that had collided.

I took a closer look at the two cars, and the one on the right looked awfully familiar, I stared at it a bit longer until sudden realization hit that, that particular car was the exact same car that Sophie has. Sudden panic rushed through me, I looked over at Jackson and the only expression that was on his face was relief.

I grabbed his arm so fast, that I saw shock flash through his eyes and he looked over at me confused. I couldn't mutter a single word, I just felt tears again, why was I so emotional all of a sudden, what happened to me..? I just sank into the car seat and cried it all out, I didn't know if that was Sophie right before me, I didn't know if this was how my life would be, I didn't know anything.

All I did know was that I miss Sophie terrible and I regret being rude to her...I regret everything I ever said and did, I wished I had never met her... If I didn't meet her my life would have been so much more simpler I would be happier...I wouldn't be crying myself to sleep every night, I wouldn't wake up feeling dead and lifeless.

I hated everything I hated my life I hated what I had done to Sophie, it just occurred me that Sophie said that car was her brothers not hers...she could still be okay, I'm just over reacting, i needed to calm down. I climbed out of Jacksons car and started walking, I had no idea where I was going but all I knew is I was walking.

I was walking so fast it felt like my feet where moving ahead of my body, I didn't know where I was going and suddenly I saw a human like figure sitting in the distance. I slowed down my pace and walked over to who I saw, it was a girl...a very familiar girl, and as I got closer my eyes went wide at the sight that was before me....I couldn't believe who I had found...