THE EDGE OF PARADISE

The edge of paradize chapter 1

The edge of paradise chapter one
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The picture: Alaric Craig

Alaric Craig POV
It  was a good day it's wow! Working as team, there at work I felt like home cause I've just been welcomed warmly with kind and good hearts .

I remembered mom used to tell me that arms that will give you bread got noticed at first sight basing on how they received you we work hardly day by day to maintain a good quality and good services rendered to people because we're here to care and save Human kind lives as said SOP. Though I felt that way It didn't erase that I kind of scared and scented  that I worried anyway, thinking that I might be the only one gay in this whole institution just get me scare too since the day I entered this society I convinced myself that I've to be a different man  dreading that once I expose myself I must get burnt no other sentence other being executed 'cause I kinda thought that gay stuffs ain't the easily accepted subject thinking about this come to be an obsession from my first day to this working place.

Lingering on the idea of coming out to all employees seemed to be the hardest and scary death, I come out to my parents at age of 15 my dad seemed to be OK with me even mom to has been all supportive to my struggle to overcoming the fact.
I hate how my neighborhood citizens were deadly homophobic and sharp religious saying being gay is a damned and condemned trait that will never ever be accepted Being all Judges calling gay people heathen queers or faggots that all are strong hurting  insults creating a long last scar psychologically.

All these made me growing up with fear of being who I'm fearlessly but I wasn't able working bidirectionally I mean disguising and dating to compromise which is for masking my real personality the guy that I'm.
All must brother are straight as poles but have gone all friendly to me telling that I'm a good looking guy that if I was straight It wouldn't make any sense cause every hot popular guy will be proud and lucky to have me.

Every body at work thought that Caroline and I were in love just because from my first step in office it was she who welcomed me preparing my working place showing me every corner of this mansion called laboratory  and it come familiar that Caroline has found a hot heart heater guy! .I used to overheard it all around in the hospital everywhere I go these trapped in middle ear and repeat itself a thousand times a second realising that I wasn't gonna roll the way the talked about got me smile to myself as a fool.

Though my brother Vivains consoled me and strengthened me talking tat I'm a mouth watering pretty guy I never stopped worrying or asking myself I would ever find someone to love me I just wanted to taste how it feels having someone cuddling with kissing you making love to you still it's existing issue that looks like never going away how can I be confused with something in front of me? Why things keep on being dull and lame?.

I had been thinking that perhaps it was my destiny to live my life all alone if I'm away of my family.
Looking back how my neighborhood citizens were all crappy and sticky I doubted that one day I would come to find someone with who, we would feel the same way and finally fell in love this feeling comes as a blur vision just in fog or unclear anyway
This persisting toil won't go away shit desperately I stand up looking up at wall watch it's time to go for lunch.

Coming back from lunch I met Director it was time yo tell the entity to work at this hospital for at time to move here he wasn't around just away for work mission so it was a fabulous time to come and give instructions and whatever even the contract memo was clear but it seemed worthy having director dealing with you and get know one another he said there will a special  day to welcome a brand new employee and having me introduce to audience meant all employees I felt slowly blush freeze at same time he said he appreciated how I'm good worker he told me to keep it up.

Every bounce of thinking of the day to welcome new workers it melt my heart I didn't even have any idea why but I felt I'll be like a pathetic pamphlet on the day

It felt like an offbeat to going through this tush I never wanted to let people find something horrible inside I grew a trait that let me considered as monster by most persons , God is this really happening or I'm dreaming soon I'll be wide awake!.

Off work, just after diner I went straight to my bed room  taking all all left in only pair if boxers from the down I was like someone driving in own car and got lost in navigation system as taking an overdose without a rehab to fix it moving on with this seeping nightmare I felt like I got spiked .

I don't believe humans due to how they schmooze and dissipate after have been being trusted that why I stayed far away of believing. Junks in my mind won't walk away unless I gav in, talking about 'bout may stuffs that never has been easy to deal with. Most friends of mine never had any cue or evidence leading to think me as gay.
All along this sleepless hours in my bed I felt slowly taken over by sleep and my overrated heart beat shrunk down and faded away as I slept.