Another Voyage Into My Heart [On Hold]

Capter 7: The Wardrobe

My intrigue on the book stops, when I hear a scratch outside of my door. I don't want to open it, I won't open it. What made the scratch, now hits the door, like if it was trying to open it. I hide behind my old wardrobe, which has a secret entrance to another room. This room doesn't have any other entrance, so it'll never find me unless it moves the wardrobe. There's still a little hole, visible for me, but not for what's trying to come in... I hope to see what's coming in.

The door's lock is destroyed by a pistol, I know because I've heard that sound before. The person that comes in with an uniform is familiar, or not. Every guard at the castle has that uniform... so yes, it is a guard. Another person enters the room. This one's dressed too elegant, he can't be a guard.
"Check every where!" Says the elegant dressed man.
I know that voice. But I won't move. I don't want to move. I don't want to know who he is, but I know who he is. This will only bring more problems to the crew. One of the guards comes close to the wardrobe. My heart starts beating really fast, and I feel like if I was falling from a tower. He opens the wardrobe and picks the I was wearing earlier.
"Sir." Says the guard showing the dress to the commander.
"She must be here, these books weren't here when we came earlier." Says the commander.
"What do you want us to do sir? There's nothing else..." Asks the guard.
"There has to be more things. Take these books with you." -No, not the books!- "She has to be here; no one leaves the lights on if they're not going to be in the place. We need to find out what is the connection between the King and Broderick." Answers the commander.

They leave the room and I feel like my world is going to end. They're still in the ship, so I can't do anything; I can't give signals, because they'll catch me; I can't escape because I can get caught; I have to stay here. My father trusted me with this, and I failed him again. Who would put lights in a ship when you don't want to cause attention? .... Oh, wait, I know... ME!

I sit behind the wardrobe; no movement; no words come out of my mouth. Then I start to think about the words that the commander said. They were here before, that's for sure. But, 'Connection'? What does he mean with that? Yes the king and my father are friends, but why does he care? That can't affect him; can that affect him? But how? There's nothing that that friendship can do that can affect someone...

I freeze; for a few minutes I'm out; my mind isn't connected to my body. I feel like a spirit going through all the things that have happened in my life; looking for answers. An answer to why this is happening. An answer to why this is happening to me. An answer to why I never make my father proud of me. An answer to why I'm always the one making mistakes. Why me? Why is it always me?

I find myself crying; tears rolling down my bronze skin cheeks; just me, and the anxiety of seeing my crew again, of seeing my family again; that is killing me inside. It feels like if it's been an eternity since they've been gone. I don't know if they are fine; or if they got caught. I just hope they are feeling way better than me. My mind is in such trouble with her own thoughts that I disconnect completely. My eyes shut down and I feel my body leaning to the left and landing on the floor. Only the words Your fault remain bouncing in my head.