Not Just An Ass

Hello, this is my first time posting a story here and I hope it's ok. This is just a little something to get me going again since I stopped writing for a while.
These characters do not belong to me and I am not making any money out of this.
Also, the little cover pic is one I found on Google images and does not belong to me either. Anywho, thanks for reading!

Not Just An Ass

The baseball field looks a lot bigger from the stands. I knew it was but seeing it from here is completely different than being down there during practice or a game. It looks even bigger when there's no equipment lying around or people for that matter.

This is where I feel at home. Where I feel like I belong. This is where I play baseball and I'm good at it, too. This baseball field always makes me happy but it doesn't seem to be working tonight.

Even the sky looks to be in a mood, threatening to rain just to piss me off more.

Damn it, I hope I don't get sick.

Taking a deep breath, I rest my chin on my hand and my elbow on my knee. This is pathetic. I'm pathetic. There are people out in the world going through serious problems and here I am sulking over nothing.

"It's not nothing." I grumble to myself. Maybe to somebody else it's not but my heart wouldn't feel this way if it was nothing.

I had gone home to visit my grandfather who'd ended up in the hospital after a small accident. He'd be fine but things hadn't looked good at the time and I'd been told to go home immediately.

Of course, other family members had been there as well. Including my aunt and uncle along with my twin cousins, Daichi and Daiki Takenaka. Just thinking about those two over achievers makes my blood boil.

They were apparently the pride of the family: good looking, smart, successful and such nice young men. And by going to a prestigious academic high school, they were preparing to take over the family business at a fast pace.

Big deal, they can't throw a cutter like me. They can't throw a fastball or anything close like I can. They can't even hit a homerun like I...like Yuki-senpai can.

And they think they're so much better than everybody else. Especially me. They never waste an opportunity to remind me of how I'm such an embarrassment to the family.

That day, while I sat by my grandpa, he said to try my best and never give up. Trying to lighten up the mood, he said if all I ever amounted to in life was a bat boy then to do it proudly. He'd been joking and everyone laughed, even I had but my cousins had used that as ammunition against me.

"Even Grandfather knows you have zero potential in life. You're such a loser, Sawamura."

"No matter how hard you try, you'll always be this pathetic, loud-mouth, good for nothing brat. All you do is embarrass the family and your team. Just quit and we'll give you a job once we're in control."

I know I shouldn't care but it still hurts being told things like that. Especially when it feels like they might actually be right.

Just today at practice I failed at everything! I couldn't focus and my throw was off most of the time. I could see Chris-senpai was getting frustrated and when he called it a day just after an hour, I knew I was proving them right. Even Miyuki agreed!

"Sawamura, with pitches like these you'll never be much of a pitcher. Stop being pathetic and try."

What an ass! I mean, I know that's how he usually is but still! He couldn't know what was going on through my head at the time but I felt like maybe he should have. Maybe he should have known I was feeling down and not have called me pathetic. And even if he didn't, there was no need to say things like that!