I get dressed in no rush sense my nightmare woke me up at 4:00 am well I guess you could call it a flashback so now I put on my black shorts and a bvb t-shirt I slip on my combat boots and put on my thick black eyeliner ( I have snake bites and a nose piercing) I walk down stairs my mom is passed out drunk again I go get some water and pour it on her she doesn't even flinch I start to panic even with all this hate I hold for her I start to cry a little I drop to my knees and start shaking her and then she snorts I stand up all panicky and grab my back pack I walk into my first period english class and I take my seat when I notice that the usually empty seat next to me is no longer empty and sits in it is a boy with unnatural black hair and blue eyes and he is wearing a bvb t-shirt just like me and black jeans and he has spider bites he is super hot I would date him but I don't judge off of looks he catches me staring at him and I smile and look down he smiles at me and says I like your shirt
I smile and say thank you my next period is math so I begin down the hall when I hear someone say hello in a wisper i look back its the kid from first period I smile and say hello my name is ember he smiles and says im jace what class do you have next I say he smiles um I have math I say I do too you should sit next to me I don't have no one near me in any of my classes I look down saddened by the words that just came out of my mouth he looks at me confused and asks why
Well last year my best friend killed himself after being bullied because he was gay he was my only friend in my entire life so when he died I died a little too inside and after being bullied for never talking and always crying in class I decided to die on the outside too so I tried to commit suicide and I failed so here I am the weird emo suicidal girl he smiled and said I would love to sit next to you and im sorry for your loss and I happen to think you are .... just then the bell rang I sigh of course just my luck after math jace and I are walking down the hall to our next period which is chemistry we have every class together except six period p.e which im glad because I wouldn't want him to see me all sweaty I don't sweat because of exercise but because I refuse to take my jacket off because of the scars
That covered my wrists since I have to wait until my mom gives me my bracelets back she can be such a bitch Im lost in thought when I bump into a guy he pushes me and and yells watch where your going freak then jace starts yelling at him telling him not to call me a freak they are about to fight when I pull jace away outside to a secluded area and I smile at him and say than... he cuts me off you should have let me beat his ass I play drums I have muscles I smile and say I know but I don't want to see you get hurt and he leaned in to kiss me I wanted to so badly but I knew I couldn't I sank to my knees in tears he held me in his arms and asked what's wrong I don't even try to hold it in any more I let it all out im not going to bring you in to my fucked up life you could do so much better because most of the time i don't feel and when I do I never feel anything but pain the only person I had to lean on is gone forever and here I am just a waste of space spilling my heart out to a stranger and I don't deserve to even breathe im nothing but a scarred up piece of shit I say still crying and for the slightest second I felt safe in his arms the arms of a stranger he looks down at me and he just grabs my face and kisses me he says I don't care how messed up your life is I want to be in it I choose to be in it I smile through my tears and say but I im ugly iii..I my scars they just I look down tounge tied he touches my chin I don't care about that and your beautiful for all I know this could be a trap and you could kill me right now but I can't think about nothing except how beautiful your green eyes are and how perfect your smile is and how I wish that you weren't in pain . I get fed up and pull up my sleeve trying to convince him that im a waste of time and all of a sudden he pulls up his sleeve and his arm looks like mine he simply just smiles and says no one is perfect ......
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Sorry this is so short but I was not on hundred percent any one would read it but if you like it I want to know so vote or comment even if you don't like it let me know so I don't keep writing something no one likes
