A Fangirl's Story

FANGIRL

DARREN ESPANTO AND JUAN KARLOS LABAJO - the two artists I've been fangirling on. O, this crappy life. I've been waiting so long to see them in person but still, It doesn't happened yet.

It sucks when I saw some pictures of my co-fangirls with JK and Darren. And when they usually posted it on both instagram and facebook, tweet it on twitter and so on. Damn life! Why does I'm not always having time to save money so that I can also buy tickets for their concerts and album launchings?! Is it really that hard to me to put some coin in a box or can that is well secured? Everyday, I always asked myself if I have money left to put in my saving can. Sadly, that can is empty yet.

I am just like a pathetic girl who is asking my Mom to save money and buy me a ticket for Darren's next concert. But because we had more things needed to buy than those sucking tickets, Mom can't save money for me which I think I can do for my self.

Urgh! If I have those superpowers that can tell Darren and JK to my house, I should probably did it long time ago. I can't predict my self from smiling when I'm stalking and scrolling to their photos on instagram. It is just the social media which I can reach them. Even facebook. I usually do flood comments and likes on some of their photos just for them to notice me. I feel sick waiting for their reply to my DMs to them but it doesn't work even if I always send them messages everyday! ~__~

Destiny, is it really hard to understand what do I want? I just want to be friends with Mr. Gowy and Mr. Domino, Juan Karlos Labajo and Darren Espanto to be exact and you won't let me to see them! Come on. I don't wanna get stucked in the fan zone my whole life!

You're so unfair when it comes to others! You always let happen everything what they want. But me, no.

Maybe there would be the right time to come for me to see them soon.

Don't play a game with me, Destiny. I'm not yet ready.

So, a day come, I think It's October. A day which I was too busy in school. Mountains of schoolworks are always waiting for me to finish them. Too ironic, I know. It's eleven forty five in the morning, the bell rangs, signal for the lunch break. I don't want to eat lunch that time because I have so many projects to do first. Ricci, my classmate asked me if I want to go to the Mamba Gym near Cagayan National High School and I said, "Bakit ako pupunta dun? Ano bang meron?" I don't know why she wants me to go there. Then finally, she answered my question. "Girl, nando'n si Darren, JK, Lyca and Darlene. Guest sila dun! 'Diba nga Aggao Nac Cagayan (Feast of Cagayan) ngayon?"

After what she said to me, she went outside to buy for her lunch and left me out of mind inside the classroom. I don't know if she's just joking or nah.

So the time come, I hear some of the students of the other sections screaming with full of excitement. I heard that they will also want to go where the show will held.

After dismissal, Ate Kaye (She's my cousin), asked me if I want to go too. And for the sake of my dream, of course I will come. While on our way, I can feel my blood running through my veins going to my heart hammering to my ribcage. Shit. I can feel my fangirling heart dying to break free. My hands are shaking. O, God this is it! I said to myself. Then finally, we're now in the place. I can see the tarpaulin of the TVK top 4 posted on the stage.

Hours passed and it's already 8:45 pm. My long wait is over. Of course, my co-fangirls too.

We can see a bus stopped on the side of the gymnasium. It's rainig so hard. The whole gym is wet. Because of excitement, of course, I screamed so loud, too.

When it's time for Darren and JK to come up on stage, I can feel my body shaking so hard. Butterflies in my stomach started battling. Argh! Fangirl moments, y'know.

After the show, we got home. I know I have class on the next day but, I can't really sleep because of thinking about what happened earlier. It's my best day ever! I'll make sure that when I have a chance to see them again, I can take selfies with them and hug them so tight. I will cherish those times that I will be with them. I know every fangirl will do that also.

When I heard news about their crushes, I feel like a broken glass because of jealousy. I know that I'm just a fangirl of them and nothing can be more than that.

Dear Juan Karlos or Darren,

Why don't you like me back? You're chasing other girls more than me. I can promise you that you'll be happy with me. I will do whatever makes you happy. I want you to be happy beacause your happiness makes me happy, too. I wish, I could be the one you will fall in love with. I just really wish that you'll love me back not just your fan but your only girl. I know it's impossible. You've never seen me yet just a big crowd of fangirls shouting your name. I should really accept the reality. I should wake up in a dream which I know that will never happen. Truth hurts me a lot, guys but I need to be strong for supporting you 'til the end of your career. Sad to say, I don't know if I can. Always remember that every crowd you see on your mallshows and concerts, there's always a pathetic girl shouting your names despite how the whole crowd of fangirls of you competing to shout so loud with her. I'll promise to buy your albums soon so yeah, I will.

Lots of Love,
Your fan <3

P.S. I think I should shut myself down for a while.

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A/N:
How is it guys? Hoping that all of you like it. Keep on supporting, baes! Lovelots.

~Fangirling Author