After that kiss (a shoey fan-fiction)

Chapter 12

*****PLEASE READ THE A/N ON THE BOTTOM*****

Joey's P.O.V

How can i not feel bad for him? This really hurt him. And it hurt me to see him like this. Its kind of his fault that Lisa tried going suicide. That doesnt make me love him anyless. He is sad about this and its bugging him.

Joey: I do feel bad and i cant do anything about it.

Shane: Well dont. Shes still here and thats all that matters. Dont feel bad.

He satrted tearing up. I looked at him. That really made me sad. i wiped his tears off his face and i kissed him. He started kissing back. I started leaning foward, causing him to lean back. I kept leaning until Shane was laying on the bed and i was on top of him. I started kissing him again and worked my way down to his neck. It caused him to moan and than he stopped me

Shane: Im sorry Joey, i cant do it not. I dont think im ready yet.

Then he pecked me on the lips.

Shane: Thanks Joey, i feel alot better. I love you.

Joey: I love you too Shane.

I said as my voice started cracking and my eyes started tearing up. I managed to hold my tears until he left the room. But ebfore he left he hugged me and i hugged him back. i didnt want that hug to end. I started crying as he walked out the room to the thought that i had lost him for good. So i wiped my tears on the pillow and walked into the kitchen. I hoped i didnt make it look like i was crying. Luckily, i didnt. So i walked to Shane and grabbed him and kissed him.

Shane: What was that for?

Joey: Does there always have to be a reason to kiss my boyfriend?

Shane: Joey, whats up

Joey: I just.......dont want to loose you

Shane paused. What was he thinking?

Shane: Joey, your not gonna loose me. What make you think that?

I really dont know

Joey: I dont know. It just was a thought.

Shane: Well dont ever think that.

He pecked me on the lips real quick. Then he continued pouring the chips he had bought in a bowl.

Shanes P.O.V

Why did he think that? What did i do? What happened? What did i say? Questions like this ran through my head. Now it made me ask him.

Shane: Joey, please tell me why you thought that.

Joey: I dont know

Shane: Joey

Joey: I really dont know

Thats when tears started flowing down my face. It wasnt because i was sad, it was natural. I didnt even mean to cry, i didnt know i was going to.

Joey: Shane please dont cry

Now im shortening on breaths. I really started to cry now.

Joey: Please...

Now im whimpering. Im sorry Joey. Everytime i tried talking, my breath got heavier and more tears would run down my face.

Joey: Shane...

Now he started to cry. I had to say something, even if i died inside.

Shane: J-J-joey

Joey: Yes shane

Shane: P-please tell m-me why y-you thought that?

Joey stood quiet. Hes getting me worried.

Shane: JOEY!!

Joey: B-because of L-lisa

What?!?!

Shane: What?

Joey: When when L-lisa tried suicide, i-i thought u would do it t-too

Really Joey? Really? Now i cried even more.

Shane: J-joey....

I took a huge breath

Shane: I wont leave you for her. Not for her.

Joey hugged me. We stood there and just.....hugged.

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Hey you guys. Im so sorry that i didnt post that day. Alot of things has been going on lately. Well the day i was gonna post, my computer crashed. So i tried writing it over and i only got up to Joeys P.O.V. So i finished up to the part where it said Joey was holding his tears in. The next day i had my program and we had a trip but it was cancelled. So i decided to continue the chapter. But the stupid program maker thingy walked in. So i had to put my phone away. Then she stood there for like the rest of the day. So when i left i continued but my phone died. When it charged up, my mom took it to check it. When i got it back, my mom made me go to sleep. The next day, Friday, was the worst of all. I really dont wanna say it but im going to. So on friday, a teacher decided to say no phones for the rest of summer. So i couldnt do it there. (im actually crying while writing this next part, keep reading) So after we came out, Day decided to take me and justin to the park. So we went to the park and decided to invite Lesshawn (Days boyfriend, like my brother). So we started playing and Lesshawn started chasing Justin. Day laughed and justin ran in front of her. Her tooth had hit his head. He started crying and we didnt see the blood because he had his head faced to the other side of us. So we went to see and he was dripping blood too much. It looked like they threw a tomato at one side of his head, but it was dripping even more. So we ran him home and Lesshawn ran home by himself crying. So we got Justin home and the Moms fixed him. So i tried texting Lesshawn and he wouldnt text back. I kept telling him its not his fault and to please write back. So i got scared and started shaking and crying. I thought he was gonna harm himself n stuff. He finally wrote back about 8 minutes later saying that its his fault and he wants to hurt himself to make him bleed as much as Justin did. So i kept trying to convince him that its not his fault and that if he does it, i do it and that i love him and i need him and stuff like that for about 3 hours. Most of that time i was crying my eyes out. At one point i told him i would do it and i grabbed a razor and he wrote back just before i can do it. I grabbed my phone to check it and he was yelling at me to not do it and that if i do it he does it and he was crying and stuff like that. Anyway after that, i cried myself to sleep. Keep in mind that this went on from 6 pm-2 am. So i got up and i said that i needed to finish this chapter before they get mad at me. And that i needed to explain. So this is where im at. On my phone writting this chapter and explaining and crying. Im sorry this chapter is short and this a/n is probably longer than it. Ugghh im gonna go. I love you guys. I HOPE YOU HAD FUN HANGING WITH ME I HAD FUN HANGING WITH YOU MAY THE ODDS BE EVER IN YOUR FAVOR AND I WILL SEE YOU GUYS LATER ON TODAY PROBABLY GOOOOOODBYE