How can I unlove you?
Forgetting you was like trying to forget my name. It was something that I knew eversince childhood. It was something that cannot be easily erased from me.. my memory. I wanted to forget you, you know I do.
I tried everyday. I even asked my friends for help. I tried to get away from the hurt.. that you have caused me. I tried not to think of you. How you speak.. your smile. your everything. My everything. I wonder sometimes if you think of me too but then.. I'll just laugh. That cant be. He will never do that.
That same old feeling when you told me that You dont love me. It was the first thing I always feel when you cross my mind. The emptiness caused by so much pain. I wanted to get over it. I wanted to forget. But I just cant. I cant let go..
Even if you already did.
How can I forget you? Being angry.. hatred.. is that the way? I tried. I told you to make it painful. I told you to never take me back. I told you to say it to me.. That you dont love me. That you never did.
But what happened was unexpected. I just become more sad. You did a great job. It was painful.. so much pain that I could just hate myself and not you.
I wanted to hate you. I wanted to get my logic sinked in.. I wanted to believe on what my mind is saying. I wanted to lose hope. I wanted to feel its useless. I wanted you to hurt me.
And you did.
You did a very good job. I thanked you for that.
Your part was done... Now I need to find the answer to How.
