Emily's Diaries

2/18/16

I don't want to let go. I can't let go.

I still care. I tell myself she doesn't care. She doesn't care if you live or if you die. She's probably glad she made me feel this way.

She's winning. My parents say. Yes, she's winning. She's winning and I'm losing. I'm losing everything. I've lost people before but nothing like this.

This is harder than 1,000 break ups. This hurts 50 times worse than hell.

She doesn't give a shit about me, yet I still give one about her.

She was my home..

I don't know what to do without her. I'm lost. No one has replaced her in my life. No one. Not a single soul.

I will always care.

I will never stop.

I still care.