Perfect (Josh Devine Fanfiction)

1- First Day Of My Last Year

A Rope?

A Belt?

Overdose?

Drowning?

The list goes on, how to die, how to die?

BEEP!!!

I groaned as a punched my alarm clock and I sat up, well I've made it! Well nearly made it. I have made it through high school with only this year left to go! I gazed at my scarred arms, at least they aren't as bad as my legs. I pushed back my blanket and I trudged into my en suite bathroom. I locked the door and I stared at myself in the mirror.

I look a mess! My hair is all tangled and the bags under my eyes were back. I rolled my eyes at my appearance, no wonder why I am such a loner. I stripped off my pyjamas, I stared at my stick like legs. Oh the joys of being Anorexic! I dragged my feet to the shower and I switched it on, I waited for the temperature to rise.

Thirty seconds passed and steam started to fog the glass, looks like the temperature has raised! I stepped into the shower and I washed my hair. I scrubbed in the shampoo. What time to I have to be in school today? Meh about ten for this gay meeting I have to go to about the "future" there is no point of me going since I have no future.

I washed out the shampoo and I smothered soap all over my scared body. The fresh cuts stung but I'll get over it. I rinsed off the soap and I switched off the shower.

I hopped out of it and I wrapped a towel around me, I walked back into my bedroom and I rummaged through my wardrobe. I pulled out a Three Days Grace One- X top and black Jeans. I applied a little layer of make up. I looked at myself in the mirror. "Well this is as good as it is going to get," I sighed, I grabbed my bag and phone and a ran downstairs. "Steph aren't you having breakfast before you leave?" She shouted from the kitchen. Urgh! "No! I'll have it at school!" I lied before I slammed the door closed, if I had stayed I would have got bombarded with stupid questions. I got into my car and I started the twenty minute drive to hell.

I switched off my car, I grabbed my bag and I literally pulled myself out of my car. I closed the door and I locked it. I am ready for a day of torture!

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"Have a wonderful last year," Mr Carter the head teacher said before dismissing us. Thank god! That assembly took forever! Everyone spilled out of the theatre going to their first lessons. I walked out getting pushed out of everyone who was still stampeding to their lessons. I got pushed into a school ambassador locker, well that's just gay. I rubbed my head and I continued walking through the sea of pissed off teens. Looks like no one is happy to be here... What lesson do I have next? Ah maths! Lucky me, hint the sarcasm?

I walked into maths to see my teacher for the rest of this year, he was short and black with hardly any hair... If you find it hard to picture what his hair looks like, think of Homer Simpson. I walked over to the back of the class room and I sat down at the back row and I watched my "amazing" pupils to come in.

"Okay I think that's everyone!" The teacher said clapping his hands, some immature people sniggered at his actions. I rolled my eyes. "Now my name is Mr Simpson," he said writing his name on the white board. "Now we are all aware that you guys a preparing for your A level exams, so we shall start with algebra this term and we will move on to calculus," He said handing out books.

"Does anyone know how to answer this question?" He asked looking around the room, no one raised their hand, shame there are no teachers pets in here. I doodled on my book. "Miss Williams care to answer the question?" Mr Simpson questioned, I sat up, "Erm, I- I don't know?" I said, it came out more as a question. "Well maybe if you were paying attention then you would know!" He scolded, I gave him a dirty look as he turned around to face the gay board.

This lesson never ends! Can you believe I've only been here for thirty minutes, and this is a freaking double lesson!!!!

The door burst open and a girl stumbled in, she was about the same height as me, she was literally like me but with brown hair. "Sorry I'm late sir it's my first day and I was taking the tour around the school with the head teacher," She puffed, Mr Simpson nodded and he pointed to me.

Oh shit!

The seat next to me is the last seat left.

Damn!

I was planning on sitting alone for the whole year, well that plan backfired!

She glanced at me and she walked over quickly, she sat down and she slid her bag under the table. She smiled warmly at me and she looked up to the board that had a load of equations written all over it, her eyes widened. "Could you help me?" she questioned turning her head to face me, her eyes were blue, like sky blue. I smiled but my smile faded, "I haven't been listening," I stated showing her the doodles on my book. She chuckled quietly. "Sorry I didn't catch your name," I said offering her my hand, "Sky," she said shaking my hand. "Hi Sky I'm Stephanie but people call me Steph," I informed her.

I think for the first time in years I'm making a friend!

Nah! It probably won't last an hour till she starts calling me names.

I leaned back in my chair and I proceeded to doodle.

"Okay now I'm going to leave you guys to carry on until the end of the lesson, Miss Stone I will bring your book to you now," Mr Simpson said. At the corner of my eye I saw Sky mentally face palm herself. Mr Simpson came and gave Sky her book and thankfully he explained the work to her. What? I wasn't paying attention before and if my test scores are bad then my parents will go mental.

As soon as "Homer" left I placed my had on the desk. God the sooner I finish school the sooner I can hurry up and die, I don't know how long I can keep this up for. I mean, I've got nothing to live for! Not since Lola died.

Lola was my best friend, we had been best friends since the day we were born. Our mom's went into labour together and I was older by a couple of hours. She was like actually WAS my sister, we were joined at the hip. We did EVERYTHING together. We had our birthday party's together every single year. Why did it have to be her? Why couldn't it have been me who died!!! WHY?!?! I forced myself not to cry, I have to appear strong. I can only cry when I am alone! Suck it up Steph, you can't just start randomly crying in the middle of maths. For god sake you are eighteen, how many eighteen year olds do you see cry in maths. zero! Zip! Zilch! Nader!

I walls pulled out of my thoughts when someone tapped my shoulder. I looked up and I saw Sky looking at me concerned. "Are you okay?" She asked, I nodded and I sat up. I've got to do something before I leave this room or "Homer" Won't let me go. I looked at question one.

1. What is 2A+5B-A+2B?

I sat there staring at the question. Looks like it isn't that bad, but there is like forty- five of these questions. I did the first five before I gave up. Nothing is worth doing this crap. I dropped my pen and I sat back in my chair. "Hey, Steph copy off me, I've done," Sky said pushing her book towards me. I looked at her, "No, it's okay," I said pushing it back to her. "No I insist," She argued pushing it back to me, I sighed. I'm obviously not going to win so I might as well do what she says. "Thanks," I whispered. She nodded her head and she started doodling on her hand. Don't blame her...

Why is she being so nice to me?

No one even likes me! So why should she, I prefer to be alone. But I guess it's great having someone to speak to...

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A/N

Hi guys! Some of you are going to hate me because I deleted just us without warning, however I didn't like the book I was writing so I'm going to start writing this one. :)

Sorry If you liked Just Us.

Next chapter is going to be posted on maybe Monday or Tuesday, hopefully this book gets more readers that my other book.

Josh or One Direction won't be in this book for a while, please be patient because the beginning is important.

Love from...... xxxxx

-TanTanXXX