C o l o r

My dead Harp

Levis early childhood p.o.v

"Okay Levi even though you're 4 years old it's about time you express your emotion towards music .. "

My mother stroked my hair gently *

" mama I want to play the one with many colorful strings ! "

"Now,now Levi sweetie are you sure ? What about the viola or violin !?! Maybe the cello ! "

"No mummy I'm sure I want this one !"

Levi plucked each string on the colorful harp.

"Hehehehe I feel happy ~! " "I'm glad sweetie !"

The music worker at the store looked at Levi's smile playing the harp , his mother was tearing up. He then asked why she was crying .

"M'mam why are you tearing up ? "

"I just want my son to live his life to the
fullest , his bone marrow disease will affect him later in life ."

She kept speaking to him over an hour .

Even the music worker started to cry .
"Thank you m'mam"

Levi took his precious harp to his beloved home , "thank you mummy !"
"Your welcome ! Now practice!"
She pushed his small back to the music stand softly . "G~go !"

Levi started to pluck as instructed on the "book of harps 1 "

2 months passed he already joined competitions , forced by his mother .
"Mummy I don't think - I'm " " Just Do it !! " she growled at him pushing him into the audience and dragging him by his small little arms . All the way to the backstage
" Levi if you don't do it you'll get the stick again ! "

The stick meant , she'll get any object near her and beat him up with it like last time he got beat up with a flower vase , for not getting four notes correct last concert .

He gulped and went on .

Ready .....

He had won many scholars to go play in other countries , like Germany and Brazil

He wasn't happy about his harp anymore his mother was using him for money . That's why .

The real reason .

After the competition he went to look at other instruments , "oh a violin looks nice mum !"

"I don't think so the harp is fine ."
"Ya think so-"

Levi's mother only wanted him to play for money since they didn't have enough to support themselves . Their father left them for another woman, only mother knew that reason

Father said he went on vacation.

Never returned since I was 3 years old .

Never .

Levi grew up in to his early teens , he had a large red marks on his growing pale hands from all the hitting his mother gives him

Every single day ,

He was happy on the outside but Depressed on the inside , He began to feel weaker every month . He no longer saw color on the strings, on the harp he played

He was no longer happy .

While he was practicing in a dreadful mood , his mother yelled at him.

This is what I can only recall from my vivid memories ... The worst horrible childhood I ever had , that's why I quit the harp and afraid to start again with a harp my mother
Still haunts me to this day in terrible manners ,

I hate the harp .